No Love Involved (COMPLETED)

The Emotion

Zeph.

 

 

I forced myself to get up kahit na alam kong medyo masama ang pakiramdam ko. It has been two weeks since that talk that I had with Jayson at pagkatapos ay halos hindi na kami nakapagpahinga because of wanting me to get pregnant.

If other girls will be delighted with that fact, well I am not. Kung iba siguro ang sitwasyon, kung sana ay ginagawa niya iyon dahil mahal niya ako at hindi dahil sa atat na atat na siyang makawala sa deal na ito edi sana natuwa pa ako. Kung sana kahit kaunti man lang, kahit katiting man lang na habang ginagawa naming iyon with gentleness and passion edi sana natuwa pa ako.

But no. Kung love nga hindi niya magawa, gentleness pa kaya?

And with his command na dapat ay lagi kaming magkasama, well, nangyari iyon. I thought he’ll leave me here in his house alone and locked up but he did the otherwise. Hanggang sa opisina ay karay-karay niya ako and yes, we did it for a lot of times there. It’s like he’s in a hurry. So hurry.

Nang makatayo ako sa kama ay naligo ako kaagad at pagkatapos ay nagsuot ng knee-length dress na binili niya rin. He said this kind of dress is accessible and I couldn’t agree more. But right now, honestly speaking, I feel like a slut. I fell dirty. I feel like I am the most unworthy person for anyone’s love.

But who am I to complain? I asked for this. I demanded for this from the start. He never said that he’ll be gentle to me and if I can clearly remember he told me that he’ll make me scream. But this time not in pleasure but in pain.

I heaved put a sigh as I remember what he did to me yesterday. I was in his private pantry in his office. I was busy preparing a cup of tea for him and a glass of hot milk for me when he suddenly he stood at my back, lifted my dress up, pushed my panty to one side and entered me unreadily, rough and hard.

Pilit kong tinatanong ang sarili ko kung anong nagawa kong mali sa kanya para iparanas niya sa akin ito. Did I hurt him? Did I do something that wounded his ego? Kasi alam ko malinis ang konsensya ko.

When I’m done dressing up without even a pinch of make up because he ordered me not to, which he said his seventh wish, I went out of his room and went to the kitchen where I saw him filling up my plate with a lot of fruits, egg, bacon, and bread.

Lumapit ako sa kanya and tried to kiss him on the kiss pero iniwas niya ang kanyang pisngi.

“Don’t kiss me. You wouldn’t like your dress to be ruined as early as this so don’t kiss me.” Matigas na sabi niya. Tumango na lang ako kahit na sobrang napahiya ako sa ginawa niya.

“Eat up, drink your milk and take your vitamins.” I sat on the high chair beside him and he pushed the plate in front of me.