No Love Involved (COMPLETED)

The Reason

Zeph.

 

 

“M-miguel… A-anong---“

“Hush… Calm down.” He said.

I finally feel secured and safe. It’s weird because he is the very reason for my misery but this hug is something.

Hindi ko na inisip ang nakaraan lalo na ang kasalukuyan. Basta umiyak lang ako ng umiyak hanggang sa unti-unting natapos. Kinuha niya ang bag na nasa shotgun seat at kinuha ang tubig na naroon.

Hindi na ako nagtaka. Alam niyang hindi ako umaalis ng walang tubig, wet wipes, alcohol, at tissue paper. Maiwan ko na ang lahat wag lang ang mga iyon.

Nang mahimasmasan ako ay pinalipat niya ako sa shot gun seat at siya naman ay umupo sa driver’s seat.

“May pupuntahan ka pa ba? I’ll drive for you.” He said. His voice was calm but you can not deny the hint of loneliness. If I am in my normal state, I will surely be raising my brow and throwing curses at him.

But I am not.

I feel so restless and I don’t want to argue with him anymore.

“Where is your wife?” The words your wife tasted so bitter in my mouth. I closed my eyes and leaned on the window. I’m trembling.

Great God! I can’t do this. Any moment I would burst out again.

He moved a little and held my hand. I just let him do it. But I don’t want to look at him.

I know that he’s apologetic but I don’t want to know if what he is sorry for. If he is sorry for breaking my heart for getting married with my sister, I guess I can accept that.

But if he is sorry for hurting because he loves my sister more than me, that will surely break my heart more. Ayoko munang makinig, ayoko munang makita.  I’m still damn afraid for another blow.

I heard him sighed and he let go of my hand. “You don’t drive, right? Bakit wala kang driver ngayon?”

 

 

“I can drive, Miguel. I just don’t.” He hissed and drove my car. Nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa labas ng bintana and ignored his sigh.