No Love Involved (COMPLETED)

Three months

Zeph.

 

“Aish! Zeph! Ano bang pumasok sa utak mo kagabi at nagawa mo ito?!” I scolded myself as I dressed up as fast as I could.

I woke this morning feeling so tired and I felt something heavy on my belly. Yun pala may nakayakap sa akin at saka ko lang narealize kung anong kabobohan ang ginawa ko kagabi.

I had sex! OMG! I had sex with a total stranger. Hindi ko man lang alam ang pangalan niya!

All I know was how I moaned and screamed because of pleasure, how his lips, tongue, and hands feel on my body and not to forget his big---damn it! Yes, his buddy is huge! Hindi ko nga alam kung paano iyon nagkasya.

When I’m already dressed up, I looked at him. He’s still sleeping. Sabagay madilim pa sa labas. It’s only 5 in the morning.

Buti na lang gwapo siya at sexy ang katawan. Okay na rin pala. At least I went crazy with a gorgeous man, hindi na ako lugi. So bago ko pa maisipang gisingin siya, umalis na ako.

I hope that I won’t see him again. I will remind myself not to come back to this bar anymore. Mahirap na baka maulit ito. Not that I lost my virginity with him. I’m not a virgin anymore, that piece of flesh was already gone almost two years ago.

It’s just that nakakahiya! I’m a psychologist for pete’s sake! Anon a lang ang sasabihin ng tao? Sarili kong behavior hindi ko kontrolado?

Dali-dali akong lumabas ng bar at nag-abang ng taxi. I don’t drive my own car. May sarili akong sasakyan pero may driver ako. I can drive but I don’t drive. Basta ayoko lang. When I got in a taxi, my phone suddenly rang.

“Manong sa Toress Towers.” I fished my phone in my bag and answered it. “Hello, Zeph speaking.”

 

 

“Pati ba naman sa mga kaibigan mo formal ka parin?” Napakunot noo ako at saka ko tinignan ang caller ID. Di ko na kasi nakita kanina bago ko nasagot and I am still not in proper consciousness to identify voices.

“Yen, anong problema mo at ginugulo mo ako? It’s still 5am!” I heard some noises at the background. Para itong sumisinghot na ewan.

“My problema?” I said in a calm way. Paniguradong may problema na naman ito. “S-si J-jim eh…” I knew it. Si Jim lang naman ang nakakapagpaiyak sa kanya ng ganyan maliban sa mga libro niya.

 

“Stop crying and start killing him in your mind. Magkita na lang tayo mamaya before lunch.” I need to rest. Pagod ang katawan ko from last night. I couldn’t even remember how many times we did it. God, that man is a beast!