I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 87: Where is she?

Previously:

“come on you guys dinners ready” I say “ok you guys go and wash your hands and lets have dinner first and then we can play” they agree and I put them down and they rush to go and wash their hands and Ana says “I am going to go put this cutie to bed she fell asleep” she leaves and Haley and I walk over to the kitchen and I say “how was your day sis?” “it was really good I am writing again” I smile “that's good isn't it?” “yeah it definitely is” and smiles then she says “how was your day” “it was also pretty good training was hell but still a good day” “that's good come on help me bring the food” I help her set up the table and everything and she says “so um guess who called today?” I say “Dallas” she says “nope, Demi” I look at her a little surprised and say “oh did she, what did she want?”

Alex’s Pov:

Haley looks at me and says “well she is turning 24 this weekend and her family decided to throw her a party so she called us to invite us” I say “oh did she?” she says “Yeah which of course I don't know whether I should go or not because If I go I am going to see Dallas and I don't want to see her” I chuckle at the fact that she went from being all serious to sounding like a teenager that’s in love  and I say “Haley why don't you give Dallas a second chance?” she looks at me with a really face and says “give Dallas a second chance what are you talking about?” “yeah I mean I know that you guys broke up because of” she interrupts me and says “Noah she knew that Demi was cheating on you and she didn't tell you or me?” I say “yeah I get that part it's pretty messed up but it's her sister if Demi told her or made her promise to not tell me or you then obviously Dallas is going to keep it, it's like if I had been cheating on Demi and you found out and I made you swear to not tell her would you tell her?” she sighs knowing that I am right and says “no of course not” “that's what Dallas did Haley” she rolls her eyes and says “I really hate you for maturing and being right you know” I chuckle and say “I love you too sis” she chuckles and I say “so are you going to give her a second chance?” she sighs and says “fine I'll talk to her” I smile and say “see that's better and you know you miss her” she pouts and says “yeah I really do miss her but, ok now what about you?” I look at her confused and say “what about me?” she says “when are you going to talk to Demi and show her the new you?” “

“Demi and I have nothing to talk about and she definitely does not deserve to know the new me clearly” she nods her head and says “do you ever wonder or at least want to know why she did it?” “to be honest at first I did but now I just don't care about her I don't feel nothing for her she is in the past she broke my heart when I gave it to her and I don’t plan on giving it to her ever again and either way I'm sure she's doing perfectly fine without me….

 Finally Demi’s Pov:

Demi’s Pov:

It's been 3 years since Alex discovered that I was cheating on her 3 years since the last time I saw Alex, 3 years since I've tried to stop myself from relapsing again, 3 years that I have been missing Alex, 3 years of regret and miserableness, I know everyone hates me for doing it but I didn't mean to do it on purpose I honestly don't know why I even did it the first time it just happened,

Flashback:

I was in my house missing Alex it was a week before Prom and I seriously couldn't wait for that day, I was really excited for Alex to see me in my dress and I couldn’t wait to see Alex in a suite she was going to look really handsome, I was watching TV like always and out of nowhere my mood changed and I felt really, really lonely, I miss Alex so much I just wish she was here with me right now and to top it off I am sexually frustrated I miss her touch, then I hear someone ring the doorbell and I get up and open the door and I see Scarlett and say “hey what's up?” she says “hey Demi umm I was just going to ask you for a favor” I know I shouldn’t be talking to her because if Alex found out that I was she would kill Scarlett and probably break up with me but, I don’t want to be messed up so I say “yeah sure what's up?” she says “so my cousin got married today and so I was wondering if maybe you could be my company for the night” she says “ohh I don't know Scarlett” she says “come on Demi I promise I won't tell Alex” I think about it and say “ok I'll go with you” she smiles victoriously and says “ok perfect thanks I owe you big time” I smile she’s so cute….wait what the hell did I just say oh god no and I smile nervously and say “it's ok don't worry about it just don't tell Alex” she smiles “I won't I promise, oh and so umm I sort of bought you a dress” she then takes out this beautiful red dress and it was breathtaking and I say “oh my god Scarlett it's beautiful” she smiles and says “I knew you would love it” I smile but then frown and thought wow Alex has never bought me a dress and I say to myself whoa did I just compare Scarlett with Alex um yeah I need to stop Scarlett interrupts my thoughts and says “so umm I will pick you up at 7:00” I smile “ok sounds good” she smiles and says “alright I'll see you later” and she leaves and I start getting ready.

My cellphone starts ringing while I am getting ready and I look and see that it was Alex calling me, I debate with myself whether I should answer or not, but then decide to just ignore her call and call her tomorrow, I know that it’s horrible and I am being a bad girlfriend but I just didn’t want to lie to her right now, it was finally 7:00pm and I was ready when I hear the doorbell and I walk over to it and open it and I see Scarlett and oh my god she looked really hot and sexy and once again I say to myself what the hell did I just say, but Scarlett interrupts me and says “wow Demi you look really beautiful” I feel my cheeks getting red and smile shyly and say “thank you, you look good yourself” she chuckles and says “so are you ready?” I say “yeah I am” we walk down to her car and Scarlett opens the door for me like a gentlemen and I smile and say “thank you” she closes the door and walks over to her side and gets in, she soon starts driving and we'll let’s just say that the sexual frustration grew even more when we were in the car she would rub my thigh and I would rub hers and we'll let’s just say at the end of the night we ended up having sex in my bed not only one time.

End of Flashback:

After that one night we just continued and honestly I don't even know why, I guess I just really missed Alex and she wasn't there for me the times I needed her even though it was my fault because I never called her or anything I fucked up so bad I regret it so much I miss her a lot I still love her I didn't even get a chance to talk to her to at least apologize for breaking all of our promises and her heart I don't even know where she is at all, her family doesn't want to tell me because Alex told them not to tell me I've tried everything but I can't find her I don't even know where or who to ask anymore I just need to see her and apologize and tell her how much I love her and how sorry I am and I mean I think karma got me back because Scarlett cheated on me really bad I honestly don’t even know why I even gave her a chance I knew I shouldn't have trusted her ughhh what the hell is wrong with me I am so stupid I will never forget what my mom told me that day when Alex caught us

Flashback:

I was sitting down in the sofa crying my eyes out because Alex had just seen me having sex with Scarlett I tried calling her but she didn't answer Scarlett tried cheering me up but I just ended up slapping her and telling her to leave and she did but then someone knocked on the door and I got up and I opened it thinking it was Alex and I saw it was my mom she says “Demi honey what's wrong?” I can’t contain myself and continue crying and say “it’s, it's Alex” she says “what happened did you guys get into a fight?” I nod my head saying no and she says “what happened?” we go inside the house and I continue crying and she says “Demi what happened?” I say “I cheated on Alex mom, with Scarlett and she caught us” my mom pulls away from me and looks shocked at what I just said and I can see disappointment in her eyes she says “I cannot believe you Demetria how can you do that to someone who loves so much and would do anything for you? Please tell me it's a joke” I nod my head no and continue crying and she says “I am really, really disappointed in you Demetria your father and I raised you better than that” I sigh frustrated “I know you did, mom I don't know what to do I don't even know why I did it was a mistake” “was it just tonight?” I shake my head no and she says “for how long?” “for a whole month” she nods her head even more disappointed in me than she already is and says “where is Alex?” I say “I don't know she left mom I don't where she is at I tried calling her” “I cannot believe you did that Demi, Alex loves you so much she was even going to propose to you Demi she was ready to spend the rest of her life with you but you lost her Demi and she is not going to come back to you and you didn't lose only her but you lost her family, her trust and her heart Demi”

End of Flashback

And so yeah my mom yelled at me some more that night and she was right I didn't only loose Alex I lost her family and a lot of fans and friends too Alex's family still talk to me and everything but the only person that hates me is Alex's mom I can see it in her eyes and I mean I don't blame her though, because of my stupid mistake she lost her daughter and can't see her I really wish I knew where Alex was so I can talk to her but I can't find her I wonder if she still thinks of me sometimes? Is she happy where she is? Does she still love me or does she hate me?

Should Noah go to Demi's party?

What do you guys think about Demi's actions?

Does Demi deserve to not know where Alex is?

Hey guys I’m sorry that I didn’t update yesterday, I went out with some friends but to make it up to you guys I will be updating twice today! =) Thank you guys for reading this story I love you guys! =)