Life With EXO: Imagines

163. Life With EXO: Luhan

Luhan (Confession)

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"I hope he sees my wish," I sigh to myself.

I've been sitting on the floor for the past hour writing this.

"Let me read it one more time..."

"I can't fully understand Chinese. I understand some parts right now. But I am determined to learn for him! I'm so shy. Will he see this? Well, it all started 1068 days ago. The time he debuted. I was in love, as most would say. Everyday has been so rough for me... The past six years actually. It hit me hard in high school. I wanted to give up so badly. I had thoughts I shouldn't have had. He was the one that made me happy. Some people might say it sounds silly. "How can he make you happy when you never even met him? He doesn't even know you!" I know. In my heart, he is my first love. He's the most caring and humble guy I know. When you first look at him he's cute. However, don't forget. He's also very manly and handsome. His expressions always make me smile. There was one part of his life that effected everyone. It effected me greatly. I looked up to him, and I never stopped loving him. Although we never met, I hope we do. I've been waiting for 1068 days. I've written him a letter long ago as if he was my pen pal. My wish to to meet him if possible and hand it to him. If I can't, find a miracle to send it to him. My wish is to know enough Chinese to meet him, greet him, and hand him my letter. (Take a picture if possible too! Haha!) He's my first love. One sided love? The one who is always sweet, kind, caring, loving, and humble. The one who never stops to make my days of smiling and laughing. The one who gives me hope to live on... in hopes of meeting him one day. The one who saved my life is 鹿晗. My wish is to meet my life saving superhero! He continues to help me through the tough times through music, videos, movies, and funny expressions. It never gets old. I have waited so long. I want to study abroad, and if I can't, I hope to meet him soon. A long time ago I made a post saying I asked him to attend my first high school dance. He didn't see it, which is okay. He's busy, and I know it's hard for him to fly to America. I didn't feel like a loyal fan in the beginning. I wasn't able to afford merchandise like posters, magazines, and CD because I don't have money. Nothing. But it's okay. My continuing love is my support to 鹿晗. I just print out pictures from my computer. I hope and dream of attending college and finding happiness. I meet him and hand him my letter I've been saving. Tell him I finally bought a merchandise to support him. Long distance sucks. I love you 鹿晗 오빠."

Do I sound weird? Is this weird?

"This is for 'Make a Wish' post from Luhan..." I copy my letter. "I am doing this right, right?"

I get onto weibo once more, and paste my wish for Luhan to see.

"I'm so sorry. I can't fully understand Chinese. Please forgive me because there are the many errors. I've taken a picture of my post. I love you so much, 鹿晗 오빠."

Oppa, do you ever see my posts?

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please read.

first of all, I am going to vent: I feel so annoyed. this took me half an hour to just post. It crashed on me twice. it deleted twice. But it also deleted my long note on part 161 to you guys.

second, I am such a weirdo. She weirdo. I am literally scares if Luhan reads my confession full of errors. I would die in the inside but cry on the outside.

lastly. Here's my third time writing this note (got deleted every time. so annoyed). I am annoyed but what is making me happy is seeing your notifications. That's what I said in every note. Your support on votes follows and comments make me so happy.

As a Senior I am so stressed. (blessed to accepted into college. praying for scholarships). I ALWAYS read your notifications. I don't forget about my Wattpad family. I try and want to update everyday if possible. And I've been like a horrible mother not caring since early November. I promise. I have so much in stored. I have so many ideas. So many unfinished and unedited stories I need to post. I've seen your requests, and I'm glad. I love writing to you guys even though it's crappy at times. Always full of dialogue, hehe. I have to work on that.

I'm so thankful. *prays this update works*

xoxoxox.