The beginning

Chapter 38

Amelia's POV:

Numb. That's all I'm feeling at the moment. I don't care where I'm at this moment. I don't care with who I'm with. I think we are in Lizzie's car but where we going I've got no clue. The images of the night keep coming back every second I close my eyes. Every touch feels like theirs. I know I should fight it but at this point I just can't. I'm tired, so goddamn tired. I feel the car stop but I don't look up to see where we are. I bite my lip hoping I can stop the flashbacks, as I just sit and wait for what will happen. "I'm going to help you out okay?" Lizzie says I think. I feel her tap my hand 3 times that confirm my thoughts that it's her. I want to reply, I want to tap her hand back but I just can't. A soft sigh escapes her lips as she closes the door. My cheeks are wet, my eyes are burning and my throat hurts. The door opens and I feel her soft hands helping me out of the car guiding me to what I guess her house. "What happened Liz?" I flinch at the male voice and shuffle closer to who I hope is Lizzie. "It's okay it's Robbie. We are at our house. You're safe." she says softly. I hear voices but can't place what they say. I'm being sat down on a couch and I curl up wrapping my arms around my legs and resting my head on top of my knees. I just stare in front of me, too caught up in my thoughts. Did they get them? Are they locked up? Do they know me? Was it personal? Why did they do it? A wet soft feeling touches my arm snapping me out of my daze. How long was I out for? A soft whine makes me look down and a paw is on top of my hand. Great I'm bleeding. Another whine and a soft nose touches my cheek. Billie. I look up at her and wipe away the blood with the sleeves of my hoodie that I notice the red patches on. How long have I been doing it? Billie shuffles closer and I make room for her so she can lay on top of me. I softly stroke her head as she lays her head in my neck, her nose close to my ear softly breathing. "I'm okay Bills." I whisper but almost hiss at the pain in my throat. I carefully look up and see Florence sitting next to me by my feet. Her eyes red but she doesn't fail to give me her beautiful smile. "Hey angel." she says softly as she hands me some water. I take a few sips and sigh as the cold liquid eases the pain. "Hey" I mumble. I look around and notice Lizzie, Robbie, Mads and Nick. Didn't we just leave them? Where are we? Billie whines again and I look down tracing some shapes on top of her head. "We are at our place." Lizzie says softly her voice hoarse. I nod thankful she noticed my confusion. "How long?" I ask but no one in particular. "3 hours." Mads says and I sigh. I point to my arms and look at her. "The last 30 minutes. We couldn't stop you. Billie did though." I hum and kiss the top of her head. Billie wags her tail happily now I'm responding more. She gets off me and I whine a little missing her warmth. I look over at Florence and see her hesitating to touch me but I want, no need my girlfriends touch. I shuffle towards her and bury myself as close as I can on top of her nuzzling my face in her neck. She carefully wraps her arms around me and kisses my cheek. "You had us worried there princess." I frown and mumble an apology against her but she shakes her head. "No. Don't apologize. It's okay and you're out of it now. Why won't we clean up a bit and get some new clothes on? I bet Lizzie has comfortable hoodies." I nod and look over at Lizzie to see her smiling a bit and carefully comes over. I detach myself from Florence and cuddle in her side. "Can I borrow your hoodie?" I ask her with a small smirk. She chuckles a little and hugs me tight. "You never have to ask." I smile widely and stand up but a bit too quick so I stumble but Florence is quick enough to catch me. "Let's take a shower okay?" I nod and the both of us walk to my room here. As I get in my bathroom and take my clothes off, Florence is about to leave. "Don't leave me, please. Get in with me? I have sweats and hoodies in the closet." she hesitates a little. "please baby" I ask her and she nods and pecks my lips softly. We both get under the shower and I hum as the water hits my skin and Flo's arms wrap around my waist pulling me flush against her. "Relax okay?" I close my eyes and sigh as she massages my shoulder and rubs the shower oil in my skin and slowly rinses it off. We turn around and I wash her and rinse her off. As we get out we both hiss at the cold and chuckle, quickly grabbing a towel. She wraps the towel around me and I return the favor pecking her lips after. I grab some sweat shorts and underwear for the both of us. We get out of the bathroom and I point at the closet so she can go pick a hoodie while I quickly get to Lizzie's closet and grab one of hers. We get back downstairs and I notice the smiles on their faces as they see us. Billie barks softly and runs towards us. I quickly kiss her head and sit back down on the couch making grabby hands at my girlfriend. She rolls her eyes but shuffles in my side. One of her hands goes underneath my hoodie and traces some shapes on my stomach, while mine is on her back. We both love skin to skin but this will do for now. I can feel the tension in the air and I know we have to talk about it. "So when do we have to leave?" I say softly and notice the widen looks and Flo stops her movements for a second. "Lia we don't have to talk about it now." Mads says but I shake my head. "We do." I state and she sighs. "You've been stuck in that transe for 3 hours. The last 30 minutes you've been hurting yourself and as soon one of us came close you freaked out, panicking even worse. You didn't get out of that daze until Billie got to you. We will talk about it another time." I sigh getting a little frustrated. "Yes I know I've been stuck I do. I've been staring at the flashback every second, I've been thinking about it every second. I know okay? But we need to talk about it anyways. I just had a minor slip but I'm okay now. I have to know when we go there so I can prepare myself. I need answers Mads." I reply a bit harsher than intended making her look down at her hands. "I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that. I-I'm sorry." I feel the tears welling up but she shakes her head. "No it's fine. You're right, I just wish it would be easier." She mumbles the last part but I still understood her. "I know, but I'm fine now. It just got me overthinking and brought me back for a little." I play with the rings on Flo's hand that's on my chest. "You don't have to go. Madison and I will go we talked to our managers and freed our schedule so we can go within the next couple of days. We will keep you updated and will let you know if you've got to come." Nick says avoiding eye contact. "Nick look at me." He shakes his head and I know what this is about. I softly push Flo off me and make my way to Nick, holding his hands. "Nicky look at me." He looks up at me and I see the tears in his eyes. "They almost killed you Lia. They left you to death. I can't watch you go through it again, I just can't. You are doing so good and we both know the effect they will have. I wont allow it, I promised you that day I will protect you, making sure they never get the chance ever again and that's what I will do. They won't come fucking near you." I nod and softly wipe away the tears. I hug him tight snuggling in between my best friends. "I love you Nicky. And you didn't break that promise. I feel safe with you." He shakes his head and I sigh. " I flinched when you came near me didn't I?" I whisper and he nods. "I'm so sorry, but it wasn't your fault. It was my stupid brain playing games with me. I know you wouldn't ever ever ever hurt me. I wouldn't be hugging you right now if I felt any different." I try to assure him and he sighs looking up at me. "Please let us go and stay here with them." I bite my lip and hiss at the pain but nod. "You dumbass made a cut on your lip from all that biting." He chuckles knowing I rather have us joking about it than the pity. "Mhm, thank god my girlfriend is a vampire who can suck it better then huh?" He laughs and Mads softly hits my side as we look over at Florence with redden cheeks. Lizzie and Robbie can't help but laugh as well making the real princess whine. "Promise you will tell me if I have to go there okay?" I ask him and he nods handing out his pinky finger. We do our little promise and smile.