Mentions of suicide and self harm-
think the story behind Pray by jxdn
February 27, 2020
Playlist
We got to the hotel playlist is being held at, I had been stuck between Jaden and Josh on the plane ride here, they kept switching between bickering and flirting. It was a lot.
Now we're finally at the hotel though and supposed to be getting our panel assignments.
Giorgias POV
Sandra- oh Giorgia and Jaden, you're together. Perfect I need to talk to you two
The Event Director of Playlist Live came up to me and Jaden asking to see us in her office- it felt like being called to the principal. I mean shit... we didn't even do anything yet.
Sandra- okay so this is an odd request but we've had such high demand to add a specialty panel for you two to do singalong type stuff and a short q&a... I guess it's something you both do on your lives often and we've had overwhelming request to have it here
Jaden- you want me and Giorgia to do a Karaoke panel?
Giorgia- would the q&a be only us or other people too?
Sandra- it's be just you two, is that an issue?
Jaden- no, that's fine
I felt him place his hand onto my lower back in a reassuring way.
Sandra- great! Perfect, I can see why people want you two... such a cute couple
She smiled and glanced at Jadens hand on my lower back before her phone buzzed.
Giorgia- actually were not-
Sandra- shoot, sorry but I have to go take care of something. You guys have fun, and be careful fans can get a little rowdy sometimes
She rushed out to the hallway rushing towards the main entrance as Jaden and I closed the door to her office behind us.
Jaden- ready to go figure out the rooms?
Giorgia- yeah, I'm supposed to be sharing with Anthony and Peyton- oh my god... Peyton! I almost forgot she's here
I smiled as I linked my hand with his to drag him with me down the hall towards the elevator. He laughed as he followed after me trying to get through the sea of people without getting separated. We stopped here and there for pictures as we hurried through.
Giorgia- pey!
Peyton- g! Hey!
She laughed a little as she pulled me into a hug. Normally we weren't so peppy but ever since I made the decision to move to LA its been a little different because we know we wont get to see each other everyday anymore.
Peyton- ah- the famous Jaden
Jaden- I wouldn't say famous...
Peyton- I'm not talking about followers sweetie, i'm talking about in Giorgias eyes
Giorgia- peyton!
Jaden- she talks about me a lot huh?
I saw the smirk grow on his face as I sighed and rolled my eyes a bit.
Giorgia- about how annoying you are
Jaden- shore
Peyton- oh g... i have something to tell you
She glanced at Jaden for a moment indicating she needed to talk to me alone.
Jaden- thats cool, I've gotta go find Josh anyways- we're sharing a room, not sure who else though. Here's my room card, come over after wards I'll just be hanging with the guys.
He took the hint before I even had to say anything, he kissed my forehead sweetly placing his key card in the back pocket of my jeans before he left the room to find Josh.
Peyton- here, come all the way in
She gestured for me to come into our room rather than just the entry area.
Anthony- hey boo
I saw my best friend laying on one of the two beds as he scrolled on his phone.
Peyton- I already told him so he can stay
Giorgia- wait what?
I was confused because they aren't close, they are friends because I'm super close with each of them but they dont talk much outside of that.
Anthony- she also had to have Josh restrain me, he doesn't know why though. He just had to come in and pin me down until I chilled out enough- it was hot
He joked around about janthony at the last part. Now though I was worried about what this was.
Peyton- Anthony and I talked and decided it was best to tell you right away. You never know if something could leak and we didn't want to upset you by keeping this from you.
Anthony- you're gonna be upset either way, but you deserve to know
Giorgia- what is it?
Peyton- g... on Tuesday after school I stopped at Starbucks for coffee but there was this girl there who recognized me as friends with you and was asking for me to talk to you to get you to answer her dm on Instagram. At first I thought it was just some fan but then she showed me the dm she sent you about a month ago... just give me your phone and I'll find her
Wearily I handed Peyton my phone, at this point I felt Anthony pull me onto his bed so I was sitting down. He sat up next to me as he wrapped his arms around me and laid his head onto my shoulder.
Anthony- I love you boo
He was trying to spike me i to being more happy- that means this is gonna be bad.
Peyton- I'm really sorry Giorgia
She handed me my phone allowing me to read the dms, Anthony was reading over my shoulder since he hadn't actually seen it yet- just a summary. It was a girl named Brooklyn Mae, she was really pretty.
Giorgia- no... no way
Anthony- I swear to god I'm gonna beat his ass
Giorgia- 6 months... FOR SIX MONTHS?!
My heart felt like it'd been stomped on, we weren't together anymore but I thought that what we had was real while it lasted... turns out I was wrong.
Giorgia- for SIX FUCKING MONTHS?
Tears pricked at my eyes as I processed that my first love could do that to me.
Peyton- I already went over his head and told his mom, petty move I know but you know how much his family loves you... she'll make it hell for him.
Giorgia- how could I be so stupid? So blind? And this one... November 4th 2018 "sorry I missed your call last night, I was at my cousins house". Bitch- November 3rd you were with me- for our 1 year anniversary.
At this point I felt a tear slip down my cheek as I tossed my phone onto the bed and writhed my way out of Anthonys arms.
Giorgia- I'm gonna get some air
I barely managed to get the words out before I turned and left the room. Once I was out of the room I realized theres no where I can go to get privacy in a hotel full of fans. When I glanced down the hall I noticed Josh, Jaden, Nessa, and Griffin walking away towards the elevator.
I reached into my back pocket and grabbed the key card Jaden had slipped me. Walking across the hall to their room I swiped the card and waited for the light to turn green before I went in. Closing the door behind me I went out to their balcony and sat down as I finally let the tears fall. There were some panels going on already so there wasn't really anyone around.
I let my head fall into my knees as the tears continued to stream down my face. How could I be so stupid. I used my nails and let them dig into my thighs trying to distract myself from the racing thoughts of Lucas.
Suddenly I heard the door fly open as someone grabbed onto both of my hands to stop me from digging my nails into my skin.
Jaden- don't.
I heard the familiar voice as he pulled me into his arms. As much as I didn't wanna cry in front of him I couldn't stop myself. My body melted into his arms as he pulled me into a hug.
Jaden- You don't have to tell me what happened but please let me take care of you
He used one of his hands and cupped my cheek guiding me to look up at him. Giving in to his touch I nodded my head indicating he could stay with me.
Jaden- come on, lets get you cleaned up
He pulled me up and helped guide me back into the room and to the bathroom. Lifting me up onto the counter he went back into the room and brought in make up wipes.
Giorgia- why do you have make up wipes?
Jaden- Nessa's room isn't ready yet so her bags are in here. I doubt she'll mind if you use one of them, if she does I'll by her a whole new box.
He smiled at me as he grabbed one and stood between my legs gently wiping away my make up, most of which was messed up from crying.
Jaden- you didn't need this anyways
He said as he continued to make sure to get any residue left before he threw the wipe into the trash.
Jaden- drink this
He grabbed his water bottle and handed it to me offering me the rest.
Giorgia- thank you
My voice was weak as I lifted it up to my lips and took a sip. The cool water felt great as it coursed down my dry throat.
Jaden- wanna lay down?
Giorgia- I need fresh air
Jaden- okay, lets go back out on the balcony
He helped my off the counter and followed closely as we went and sat on the ground of the balcony.
Jaden- do you want to talk about what happened or no? You dont have to but if you do I am more then happy to listen.
Giorgia- I'm not ready to talked about it yet
Jaden- okay, that's fine
He nodded as I placed my head onto his shoulder. Him being here like this right now, not making me explain, just being there for me no matter what it is I'm upset about- it meant the world. This is how I deserved to be treated, not how Lucas treated me- I need someone like Jaden.
Jaden- ya know this is the exact balcony Bryce pee'd off of last time he was here
He broke the silence after a few minutes and actually managed to make me laugh.
Giorgia- so it's a historical balcony?
Jaden- yup, don't worry though- none of it was actually ON the balcony, all of it went off the balcony and down to the ground.
Giorgia- thanks j, thats an image I really needed in my head
Jaden- anytime love
He joked as he kissed my forehead and smiled down at me.
Giorgia- what is it?
Jaden- hm? Nothing... I'm just so glad I have you in my life. You have no idea...
Giorgia- then give me an idea, you're always so vague with this stuff.
Jaden- last summer I was still recovering mentally from having attempted suicide just a few months earlier. When I met you... you were the most real, confident, genuine person. You showed me what it was like to just be yourself and be successful. All the while being so caring towards others.
He took a deep breath and looked down at me again.
Jaden- this sounds stupid...
Giorgia- no it doesn't, please continue
I cupped my hand over his cheek and looked up at him.
Jaden- I kept seeing the number 4 that weekend, repeating. Repeating numbers are angel numbers, it was 4:44am when you finally fell asleep on my shoulder after we both couldn't sleep and had our first deep, late night, conversation. The next day I looked up what the number 4 was in angel numerology- or whatever its called. But the number 444 means your angels are with you right now. The feeling I got from you as soon as we met- just the immediate comfort, and then that number surrounding me all weekend. It was almost like you were my angel, I know in reality you're just an amazing girl but I found it very coincidental.
He looked down at me adoringly before he continued.
Jaden- Giorgia, you are one of a kind. The sweetest girl ever, you make my heart jump when you enter a room, anything you do gives me butterflies in my stomach. I'm never more hopeful and happy then when I'm with you- in my mind you're like my angel. With a freaky side.
He smirked a little as I let out a soft laugh.
Giorgia- Jaden... I don't know what to say. That was so sweet and- I had no idea how much I meant to you.
Jaden- whenever I'm in a dark place now I think of you and how I want to see you again and I want to see you be successful and make sure you are happy- I can't do that if I'm not here.
I smiled and buried my face into his chest making him laugh softly as he wrapped his arms around me.
I should just tell him what happened... he's being so open.
Giorgia- Lucas was cheating on me
I spit out before I could doubt myself. He loosened his grip and looked down at me shocked as I looked up to meet his gaze.
Giorgia- he was dating another girl for 6 months while we were together, the girl dm'd me like a month ago and I just saw it. There's screenshots and pictures. I'd show you but my phone is back in my room- I didn't wanna see it anymore.
Jaden- he's an idiot.
Jaden sighed as his grip tightened again.
Jaden- you deserve so much better then that asshole.
Giorgia- I'm not interested in him anymore but it still hurts- I feel so stupid
Jaden- you're not stupid he is. If I ever see him in person I'm gonna beat his ass.
Giorgia- you're gonna have to get in line, Josh already had to restrain Anthony who deadass was about to buy a plane ticket and fly to Hawaii.
Jaden- aren't you guys going there after playlist?
Giorgia- yeah... Anthony doesn't know where he lives luckily
Jaden- I think you should let Anthony beat his ass
Giorgia- he'll kill him
Jaden- still not seeing the problem...
I laughed a little bit as I sat up and looked at him, my eyes locking with his.
Giorgia- thank you for making me feel better... how'd you know I was upset though?
Jaden- I didn't, I came back to grab my phone- Josh gave me his key card. But I saw you curled up in a ball and forgot all about that... you needed me.
Giorgia- cheesy
I laughed to hide my cheeks that were now red as he just shrugged and kissed the top of my head.
Jaden- so what- I'm a simp. What about it?
Giorgia- eh... so am i
I smiled a little bit and connected my lips to his for a short kiss.
Jaden- do you feel up to meeting up everyone? Probably wondering where we are... if not I can text Josh and say that I ran into you and you have a headache so I am hanging out with you in the room
Giorgia- lets just go, he's not worth sitting and sulking
Jaden- thats my girl
He smiled and kissed me one more time before lending his hand to help me up.
xoxo kayla
The meaning behind angel... hope youre happy
Love you all 😘