Addison's P.O.V.
The summer sun begins to peak through my window, announcing this day is about to start. Birds sing their melodies as animals scurry along the forest floor. My feet dangle off the ledge, as I sit here on the roof. I can't help but think how blessed I am for my life.
I was so sure after what Simon did to me, I would never be happy. I held so much anger in my heart, it burned my soul. I also angry with Rick, blaming him for not helping me either. It all changed one day when I had a talk with father Gabriel. He helped me understand what forgiveness really is.
It's been a few months since we got back here, and life has been good. The Saviors have rebuilt bringing security to our lives. I finally feel safe, knowing my children can grow up with their father.
Today, is an important day, Negan and I will find out what we are having. I can't wait to have this baby already, as each day passes, it's more difficult to move. Carrying a heavy bowling ball around is not easy in this heat is not easy.
My shirt sticks to my hot skin, as patches of sweat liter my clothing. My hand almost drops the water bottle, as I struggle with the cap. The cool water soothes my burning throat, giving me a brief reprieve from this heat.
Heavy boots stomp onto the burning concrete, creating dust clouds around me. A dark shadow moves closer, blocking a little bit of the sun.
" I thought you might be up here. It's too damn hot to sit in the sun." The deep voice of my husband informs me.
I crane my neck up, and place my hand over eyes, trying to block out some of the bright light.
" I just wanted a moment to think. It's so noisy with all the people scurrying around this place. Nobody knows about this roof, except me and you. So it's the perfect place for me to be alone."
Negan lowers himself beside me, resting his lean body against mine. He places hit bat on the ledge while keeping his gaze on the forest.
" It doesn't seem real to me sometimes."
What for he mean?
"What doesn't?" I ask, unsure what he means.
" Us being back here. I am thankful we are, but it almost feels like a dream. Sometimes I think I will wake up, and I will be in a cell, under that pricks rule." He comments dryly.
My hand reaches his shoulder, rubbing small circles on his back.
" We made it through all that hell with Simon and Rick. Our story has been hell, but we are together now, and that's all that matters."
" I hate that Simon hurt you. I wish I could have saved you from him." He laments.
" It wasn't your fault. I am not angry anymore Negan. I let it go, and you should too."
" I just feel so responsible for it. If I had been able to see through Simon's shit, then none of it would have happened."
How can he think it's his fault? It's Simons, not Negans.
I gently grab his jaw, turning his face towards me. His amber eyes hold so much hurt and regret, making my heart feel heavy.
" It was not your fault. You aren't god Negan. There is no way you could have prevented anything. So stop blaming yourself, and let it go. We have a life to live, and I need you to be fully here with me. I can't do this alone."
The soft leather of his glove cools my skin, as he caresses my cheek. His eyes soften, as regret washed over his face.
" I am here. You won't have to handle this alone. I know I have made you feel that way, but I don't want too. Getting this place back in shape has been difficult, and also, trying to keep Ricks people in line. I hope eventually they will fall in line, or we might have to send them away."
" Well, Rick is trying to keep them in line, for now, so let's just give it more time. Once he is released the tension will be lower."
" Well, I am debating on whether we should just drop them all off someplace and let them fend for themselves."
" We can't do that. There are too many kids Negan and the elderly as well."
" Your right, it's still tempting."
I shake my head, he can be so dramatic at times. I slowly get up and dust the dust off my pants. I reach out, helping him get to his feet.
" Are you ready to know what we are having?"
His face lights up, as he looks down to my stomach. He rubs small circles over my growing bulge, enjoying the feel of our child kick.
" I hope we have a girl. A little version of you would be nice."
" Well, a little boy that looks like my husband would be nice too. Besides, you deserve a little version of you. Then you would get a taste of your own medicine." I tease.
"I am not that bad." He defends.
" Of course not a baby. Now, let's go find out what we are having." I comment while rolling my eyes.
A few short months later, the time has finally arrived for me to give birth. The Labor pains started last night, jolting me from my deep sleep. Sharp pains course through me, making me scream in pain. Negan holds my hand tightly, trying to give some comfort.
I grit my teeth together, as another contraction hits me. This pain is terrible, and I never want any more kids. I don't know how a woman handle this?
" Ugh, we are never having any more kids. I literally feel like someone is stabbing me over and over."
Sarah our new doctor walks in, coming to see if I am ready to push. She places a glove on her hand, then lifts the sheet, placing it over my knees.
" Alright, let's see if you're at ten centimeters yet."
After a few uncomfortable minutes, she calls for Edith. Edith is training to be a doctor, so she assists Sarah is a lot of things.
Edith rushes over, with a tray in her hands. She washes her hands, then covers them in gloves.
" Is she ready?" Edith asks softly.
" Yes, now be ready to grab the baby when it comes. Alright, Addison, I need you to give me a strong push."
" Okay." I grit out, readying myself.
I push with all my strength, and pressure down below begins to build. Sarah keeps encouraging me to push, then take deep breaths in between.
" Alright the head is crowing, I need one more push."
I grit my teeth and do as she says. A loud cry fils my heart with joy. The loud cries of my baby make my eyes begin to water.
" Alright, that's one, now for the second baby."
" You can do this Addison. I am right here." Negan assures me, giving me the strength I need.
With a few more pushes, my second baby enters our world. I lay my head back, as relief floods my body. Edith goes to clean them up, while I deliver the placenta.
Negan proudly cuts their cords, with the largest smile on his face. Once the babies are ready, Edith brings them both over, in a tiny baby bed. She places a bow on our daughter, and tie on our son. Negan found them on a run a few months, back, hoping for this outcome.
My eyes water, as I glance at my perfect children. I know I will do anything to protect them, and I will love them for the rest of my life.
Negan Picks up our son, and daughter, holding them both in his arms.
" Our little Harper and Halston. They are both so precious." He gloats proudly.
" I know, they are amazing. I am so happy we have them. I am so content Negan."
" I am too, I can't believe, I get to spend forever with you. I love you, Addison."
" I love you too Negan."
I am so thankful for my family, and for all the blessings in my life. I can't believe I get to be happy in this world. It all started with me offering my self to keep Trent safe. I never knew that one decision would change my entire life. One thing I do know is I am so happy, and I can't wait for what comes next.