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I continued to lay in Harry's arms as we watched tv along with Liam, Louis and niall.
Liam kept his eyes on me, and I couldn't have felt more embarrassed as he wouldn't look away.
I glanced at him and gave him a soft smile which he didn't return.
I gulped and turned back to the tv.
"You okay love?" A raspy voice whispered into my ear.
I turned to look at harry and smiled.
I nodded my head and he lowered his head so his lips brushed against mine.
We were interrupted by a disgusted grunt.
"Harry, can I talk to you alone please?" Liam suddenly asked.
Harry frowned and gave my thigh a small squeeze before standing up and leaving the room with Liam.
I watched as they walked across the hall, into the kitchen.
Louis and niall stared at me, their mouths hanging open.
"Whats wrong?" I asked.
"Um nothing..." niall said awkwardly.
What is going on?
First Liam, now Louis and niall?
I rolled my eyes and stared back at the tv.
I suddenly jumped when I heard a loud slam.
"DAMMIT HARRY!!!!" I heard Liam scream.
My heart started to race as I stood up, letting my feet drag me to the kitchen.
"Lindsey...I wouldn't go in there" Louis suggested.
I shook my head at him and opened the door of the kitchen a bit.
I looked through the small crack to see Harry and Liam standing across from each other, a pan laying on the floor.
"You can't keep doing this to her. You're such a fuck up Harry, I swear. When she finds out she's gonna be heart broken" Liam spoke in anger.
What is he talking about?
"You think I don't know that?" Harry barked back.
"Obviously you don't give a shit. She loves you harry....any one could tell by the way she looks at you. You walk around like you know her....like you love her....when the truth is you couldn't give two fucks about her!!" Liam spit.
I couldn't control myself as I opened the door and entered the kitchen.
"What is he talking about?" I interfered.
Harry gasped as he turned around to look at me, his mouth parted, like he wanted to say something....but the poisonous words wouldn't come out.
He walked up to me slowly, reaching for my hands.
"Baby...." he breathed out.
"Oh cut the baby shit, Harry. Tell her....tell her how it really is....tell her the fucking truth man" Liam glared.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP LIAM!!!" Harry screamed, his face red as he let out his anger.
Harry turned back at me and tears filled my eyes.
"What is he talking about?" I questioned again.
"Lindsey....you.....You're just....." Harry was at lost at words.
"You're a publicity stunt Lindsey....Harry doesn't love you....never has....never will" Liam told me.
My heart dropped in my chest and tears fell down Harry's face.
"Baby, listen to me" Harry begged as he took my hands in his.
I just stood there, shaking my head as the tears fell down my face.
"Baby. I lov-" Harry started until I interrupted.
"I can't fucking believe you harry!! All those nights you told me you loved me....all the days we spent together...all the times we talked about our future together...all the love making.....they were all lies.....And you went along with it....you let me open my heart up to you even though you didn't give me yours back....you played me Harry.....you played me" I cried.
"Lindsey please. You have to listen to me. I went along with the publicly stunt but after the months we spent together, I realized I really liked you. I fell for you Lindsey, and I'm still falling for you. I love you baby girl, please you have to believe me. All those nights, all those days, all those times, all the love making....we spent together and talked....that was me baby. That was the real me....that's how I feel about you and I meant every word. Please...don't leave me" Harry begged, holding my hands tightly in his.
His eyes were red from crying, but so we're mine.
I shook my head and turned around.
"Lindsey please" he begged.
"Harry...I just need some time" I told him.
"I'll give you all the time in the world....just promise me you'll come back to me. I need you" he said.
"Harry...I can't promise you that....but I do promise I'll give you the answer if whether or not I'm coming back....but it's gonna be a while until I find my answer" I assured him.
He looked so broken as he continued to cry, but I shouldn't feel bad at all.
For all I know...this little act could still be part of the publicly stunt....he's probably still playing me...And I just don't see it.
Blind to my own heart.
I was a fool.
His fool's gold.
I walked away from him, leaving the kitchen and grabbing my jacket, walking out the house.
A WEEK LATER
547 text messages....
982 Missed calls....
All from harry.
283 hand written letters....
371 speeches written from him to me on Twitter, showing everyone how heart broken he was.
I want to believe he cares for me....
I really do.
But trying to forgive him right now is just too hard for me.
For the past week now, Harry's been sending me multiple presents and flowers leaving them at my door.
In his recent interviews he's been telling everyone how much he loves and misses me.
I've been getting tons of people begging me to forgive him.
I want to....
But how?
My doorbell suddenly rung and I walked up to my door, looking through the peephole to see who it was.
And of course.....
He was standing there.
I opened the door, accepting his appearance for the first time in a week.
His head hung down in shame.
He slowly looked up, his eyes meeting mine and my heart breaking all over again.
His long hair was sprawled all over his head, black skinny jeans clung to his legs as he wore a silky white buttoned shirt.
"Hi...." he softly spoke.
"Hey..." I breathed.
"Can I take you somewhere?" He asked.
I shook my head as I began to talk.
"Harry, I-"
"Please Lindsey.....let me show you the truth" he pleaded.
His eyes terribly red from the enormous amount of how much he's been crying.
His nose was red too.
Bags rested under his eyes.
He must not have been getting a lot of sleep....
I haven't either.
"Okay..." I finally said, nodding my head slowly.
He grabbed my hand but I snatched it away.
He let out a sigh as we walked to his truck.
He opened my door for me and I hopped in.
After him getting in, he started the car and started driving.
"How have you been?" He asked suddenly.
I turned my attention from the window to him.
His jaw tensed as he kept his focus on the road.
"Fine...And you?"
"I've been.....okay..." he hesitated.
I nodded my head and looked back towards the window.
Tension and awkwardness filling the car.
As he continued to drive, I noticed the area of where we were.
The woods.
Not just the woods....
My favorite place Harry and I use to go.
To get personal, to let our hearts take over the night, for us to give one another all of us.
......When I really fell in love with him....
He stopped the truck and hoped out, running to my side and opening it for me.....just like he always did.
He helped me from the tall truck and grabbed the small of my back, leading me to the top of the hill, our favorite spot.
There was a blanket set up on the ground, along with a small table with two chairs.
He suddenly lifted his hand, revealing a rose.
I smiled for the first time since I left and took the beautiful flower.
"I hope you're hungry....I spent all night making this pasta for you" he smiled as we walked to the table.
It was my favorite pasta and we sat down and began eating.
After we ate in silence, he grabbed my hand and led me down to the blanket.
We sat down in the darkness....stars our only light and he grabbed his guitar and stared into my eyes.
"Lindsey....I hate what I did to you. But you need to know the truth. I was gonna tell you everything. The day we met, management told me it was just a fling since we were promoting our new album. I went along with it. I didn't like the idea....but I knew I needed to do it for management's sake. I took you on a few dates, and I would continuously wrap my arms around you...or kiss you when I saw paparazzi around. I wasn't in love....at first. Around our third month we spent together....I realized how much I really liked you....in fact loved. It went from taking you to pointless dates that I knew paparazzi would be near....to taking you to my house and having serious talks about our relationship as we laid in my bed and held each other tightly. I was falling hard for you Lindsey...And management warned me about it....saying that I needed to keep you as a property as long as I was still in the eye of publicity. But I couldn't do it...I really fell in love with you and I don't regret any second of it. I need you to believe me and I need you to forgive me Lindsey. I love you so much baby...And I can't tell you enough how much you mean to me..I've grown so attached to you it's ridiculous..I spent all my days wondering what you were doing, how you were feeling, what activity I could make for us to do that day. I was crazy about you...And I still am.....before I came to your house today....I stopped by management. I told them how absurd their idea was and how I hate myself for doing it. I told them I loved you...And that I was going to do everything I could, to get you to be mine again...officially this time. Not just a stupid fling....a real relationship as the one I love....my one and only.....And that's why I wrote this song" he spoke.
My heart stopped at his speech.
I couldn't believe it.
This was all so crazy.
He started strumming the guitar and kept his eyes on mine as he sung.
"If I could fly.....I'd be coming right back home to you. I think I might....give up everything, just ask me to" he sung.
I smiled as the tears stared to fill my eyes.
"I could feel your heart inside of mine, I feel it...I feel it. I've been going out of my mind, I feel it, I feel it. Know that I'm just wasting time...And I...Hope that you don't run from me" He continued, my tears spilling.
"For your eyes only.....I'll show you my heart....For when you're lonely....And forget who you are....I'm missing half of me...when we're apart....now you know me...For your eyes only....." he sung, finishing the song.
"For your eyes only...." he finished.
He took the guitar off and asked me to stand up.
Once I did, he got onto one knee and opened a box, revealing a diamond ring.
My jaw dropped.
"Before you freak out....I'm not proposing.....yet. This is a promise ring, my love. A promise to you that'll I'll never do anything in my life to break your heart the way I did, ever again. I'll never forgive myself for that and because I love you so much....I understand if you don't feel the same. Just know I'm never ever going to give up on you....I'll never stop loving you Lindsey Liu. I'll never stop loving your brown hair....Brown eyes....perfect smile....beautiful personality.....I love you so much...And I promise....as long as I live....if you let me....I'll always make you happy baby.....forever and always" he spoke.
By this time the tears were falling onto the ground, making a flood of sadness mixed with happiness that left my body.
I nodded my head, overwhelmingly and Harry jumped up, wrapping his arms around me and spinning me around.
"I love you Harry" I cried onto his shoulder.
"I love you so much baby girl. I'll never stop....ever." he promised, sealing it with a passionate kiss.
This was our forever.....always.
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