It is half past ten in the night but everyone in the house has gone to bed. Jennie glances to her right side, Ella has already drifted to her dreamland. Jennie keeps forcing herself to sleep but she can't. Her head was flooded with thoughts that bothering her mind. Tomorrow morning is the day. The day Lisa and Eunha wedding. Tears come to her eyes whenever she thinks about it. Her heart feels like it is caving in because of pain and hurt are too much for her to bear. She sits on the bed with her diaries.
Well, they are not a really diaries. They are actually papers that she compiled into books but Jennie assumed that to be her diaries. There are five of them. Jennie started to write her diaries when she dates Lisa, it was five years ago.
Jennie flips the pages of her diaries. All she can see are characters cells that contain tiny palpable bumps called raises dots. It is a tactile writing system used by the blind and visually impaired people. Out of five diaries, four was written in Braille while the 2015 diary was written in half Braille and the rest is Jennie handwriting. That was because Jennie has restored her sight.
Jennie picks the 2015 diary and she flips the pages. She's uncertain whether she can still read them but she closes her eyes and brings her finger tips to touch the dots.
11th January
Today I woke up early. Lili took me for a date. Our SATURDATE! I know Lili didn't really agree to go to the Art Gallery with me but he still took me there. That's my boy. As you know, I am surely can't see the paintings in the exhibition. Lili is the one who depicted the painting for me and I'm so grateful that he never got tired of describing stuffs to me. I wish I can see the painting of seascape of Hawaii by myself. By hearing the way Lili depicted the scenery. I can feel that the painting is the most beautiful painting in the exhibition.
We went to the mallas I requested to Lili. He took me to my favorite food court. We usually had our lunch there whenever we come to the mall. I really love it when Lili spoiled me like I am his little girl. It is always wonderful to be loved moreover to be loved by the man that I love. Okay, I don't want to start it or else, I am going to be so chessy here. When we ate our lunch, I can feel that people's eyes were all on us. We ate like a little child, teasing each other and laughed like no one would notice us. I have always wished that this moment won't stop here. I felt to close with Lili and I don't want it to be over.
There came the part which I don't really like when I went out with Lili. He insisted to get something for us. I know he will buy stuff for me and I don't want to trouble him. I don't really care about those stuffs or gifts. All I need is his time with me but I know I can't do anything when he finally dragged me to follow him. Lili bought a few shirts for his working attire. He thought I can't hear what mumbled to his self when I asked him to change one of his choices. I heard it. "I'm not a little baby to get rashes." Hahaha... He is so cute. Then he bought me a blouse. Lili said it suited .e really well. Oh my Lili, I can't see it either.
The best part of today's date was at the park. Lili told me his childhood story. Well, he barely talked about his personal life to me but today he did. I learned that Lili used to have a crush with a girl of his neighborhood. The funny part was when Lili didn't know how to count the number properly. I wonder how that could be but all I know, my Lili is a smart and wise guy. He doesn't seem like a dumb boy after all. What caught my attention was the reason on why Lili hated Maths. Let me try. I think I still remember what he told me this evening.
"Maths tells us three of the saddest love stories. First, tangent lines; Once chance to meet and then parted forever. Second, parallel lines; never meant to meet each other and lastly Asymptotes; gets closer and close but never ends up together. "
