𝙈𝙖𝙮𝙗𝙚 𝙬𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙩𝙤𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧?

𝐱𝐱𝐱𝐢𝐢

Act normal, Win. You can do it.

I deep sigh as I walked towards the door of my unit, opening it widely for P'Bright who I expect to be on the other side.

He smiled at me, the smile I hadn't seen for weeks, before he went in holding a plastic bag of groceries. I shut the door in front of me before releasing another sigh.

"You sigh too much, were you troubled?" I look at P'Bright whose back were facing me. He is busy placing his groceries at my kitchen counter.

I didn't bother to answer him and sat down at my sofa. Of course I am, I wouldn't feel this uncomfortable if he is not here.

I lifted the remote to open the television in front of me. He stood there on my kitchen preparing something.

I sigh once again, do I really have to face him today? I think I'm not yet ready.

I remained silent as I diverted my attention into the series at the television. I didn't mind P'Bright who is busy at the kitchen.

But honestly, I keep glancing at him, I admitted that I missed the old us. I missed laughing and teasing with him. I miss his grumpy attitude. I miss eating and going out with him.

But I need to hold back myself.

"Here! It is finished." P'Bright smiled as he put a tray of food in front of me. "I saw this on YouTube, I wanted you to try it."

I only glance at the food in front of me. I don't know what it's called but it was a pancake filled with chocolate syrup along with colorful tiny candies. There are also sour bears, gummies, and candies on one plate, waffers and other biscuits.

In other words, he prepared sweets for me.

I glance at him, "I'm not hungry." I said simply and normal then I went to watch in the television once again.

He didn't said a word before he uttered, "They said sweets could calm down your anger. Come on eat something then let's talk."

I didn't bother to reply and pretended not to hear him. I feel like I'm being rude to him. "Win, let's talk." he said once again but I didn't respond.

Maybe if I keep ignoring him, he would go away. I feel really bad doing this to him.

I felt him grab my arms to force me to look at him, but I removed his hands on me. "Win, let's talk." he said again.

"I don't want to. I'm not yet ready, just come and talk when I'm ready." I finally said looking at the opposite direction where he is.

I heard him sigh next to me. "Two months passed and you're still not ready? Come on face me and talk." I heard the slightest irritation in his voice.

I didn't said anything again. I told him I'm not yet ready, why does he keep on bugging me?

It's not like we will work together again. We finished the series, attended our schedules. There's no point in this. We will go in our separate ways.

And also, I don't even know what he wanted to talk to me about. If it's all about what happened on my birthday, I don't give a damn, I just wanted to forget it.

"Phi I told you I don't want to talk." I said irritated, I am really tired of this. I feel worse being mean to him, but I must protect myself from falling deeper.

Can't he see that I just couldn't tell him why I am ignoring him?

"But we have to talk and fix this." I closed my eyes in annoyance his soft voice is making me loose my mind, I sigh before I turned off the television to face him.