[Scared to fall]
You slowly looked up at the clock on the wall. It read 4:26 p.m. Your tutor Niall sat concentrated studying as you stared st the clock on the wall. You could feel your palms begin to sweat and your breathing become uneven.
Jesus... you didn't know how long you could last. Especially with the routine you both go through-
"Well, I'm done." Niall shut his book as you did to yours. Niall looked up taking his glasses off and smiled at you. He then looked up at the clock before biting his lip. "Hey, we have about half an hour left before you get picked up right?"
"I-I guess." Niall looked around the abandoned library before smiling back at you. He put his arm around the back of your chair and leant in. His other hand gripped the table as he went in for the normal kiss he usually gives you. But you couldn't do it today. It'll only evoke your emotions further. "I-I can't!"
Grabbing your books and standing up, Niall blinked staring up at you confused. "What?"
"I... we... whatever we have needs to stop." Niall's eyebrows scrunched as he rose to his feet.
"But..." Niall shook his head. You turned away gripping your books tighter. These months of kissing, tutoring and spending time together had you creating feelings for Niall.
You didn't want them. You saw your own parents in love in front of your eyes for years before they decided for a divorce.
'Never love anyone. They'll just end up hurting you.'
Those were the words your mother warned you with. Now you're scared to love for that reason. That you might end up like your parents.
"I really like you (Y/N). I know I haven't asked you out yet but just let me finish my studies before I can solely focus on you. And only you." Niall tried to touch your shoulder but you backed away.
"No. Don't bother. I'm done." You whispered looking up at him. You had to do this. To protect yourself. Niall's eyes slowly narrowed as he walked towards you as you backed away following his steps.
"Why?" He said as you shook your head.
"Y-you're bad for me-"
"You said you'd wait."
"I-I changed my mind." Niall shook his head reaching forward and snatching your wrist. Your books fell from your hand and your eyes widened. "Niall!"
Looking up, he shoved you against a book shelf and crashed his lips onto yours. One hand held your wrist, the other the back of your neck.
Your struggles were inferior against him as his lips enticed yours. Though you didn't react to him, you gave in letting him take you. He stopped when you had no reaction and pulled away.
"Why?" He breathed looking down at you. "Why did you say those things?" Biting your trembling lip, you looked down.
"I'm scared..."
"Of what?" His lips lingered on your forehead as you shrugged.
"Falling... in love." Niall stopped as you shrugged again. His hands then slowly lifted up and cupped your face.
"You don't need to be." Looking up, Niall smiled warmly at you. "Because I'm not." He slowly pecked your lips as you closed your eyes.
You knew it would take you a while. That you wouldn't fall straight away. But perhaps maybe, just maybe... one day you will.
Ugh, screw the author note. I love you guys but sleep is killing me right now. Plus I'm outta juice. Thank Niall. ;)
I squeezed in a bit if dirty for ya :3 No problem ;)
Nouislicker out :*
