It's The Falling in Love

Chapter Thirty-Three

"God DAMMIT!" I shouted, banging my fist against the dresser.

"Why do I have to be such a fool?!" I cried, looking at Janet.

"What the hell is wrong with me?!" I shouted.

"Mia, it's not your fault, calm down..." La Toya softly said.

I stared at her, "How can I calm down, La Toya? My baby could be ill, I'm dying!" I cried.

I wiped my forehead, "I should've listened to Michael in the first place." I quietly admitted.

"Stop blaming yourself, Mia." Janet sternly said.

"It isn't your fault." She said.

I glared at her, "It is my fault. I have had sex with Kevin multiple times for joy!" I raised my voice.

"Not lust but love.." I said, stretching my words out.

"We've been together for almost ten years and he goes off doing me like this.." I softly said.

"Such a fuckin' fool.." I whispered, running my fingers through my hair again.

"You're going to get through this, Mia. We're all going to be there for you." La Toya said, gently touching my shoulder.

"How?! Do you know how much shit I'm gonna get because of this?!" I cried.

"This is such a new disease and I've got it! How are you not afraid to be near me?" I whimpered.

"Because Michael knows this child named Ryan White.. He has HIV too, Mia. It's not contagious like talking. It takes... More." Janet said.

"We'll get through this." La Toya cooed.

I glared at her, "Don't tell Michael." I sternly said.

I looked at Janet, "I'll tell him myself..."

"I promise.." I softly said.

La Toya slowly nodded, "Alright." She said.

I threw my arms up, sitting back down on the bed. "Michael is going to hate me forever.." I softly said.

Janet shook her head, "No he isn't, Mi-"

I shot her a look, "Our last fight was about Kevin. I should've left him when I had a damn chance.." I sternly said, sniffling.

Janet sighed. "What are you going to do then?" She quietly asked.

I sighed, shrugging. "I'm going to take the medication I need... Love and care for this baby.." I looked up at them both.

"Pray that this baby won't have my disease.." I said, my voice wobbling.

"Hell.." I said, starting to cry again.

"This is a new STD, no cure.. Nothing... I'm going to die." I softly cried.

"Don't say that, Mia." Janet sternly said, kneeling in front of me.

"Look at me.." Janet sternly said.

I cried, looking down.

"Look.At.Me." Janet firmly said again, holding onto my hands.

I looked up at Janet.

"We're going to get through this as a family.. We're your family and Michael is too. No matter what happens, Mia, we're going to be there for you." Janet said with sincere.

I sniffled, "Please do." I whispered.

Janet let out a small smile as she hugged me tightly.

"Y'all should go home." I said, letting go of Janet.