Amnesia || kth ✔

37 -Sorry

-- Jungkook --

I don't have anyone right now. Jimin hyung keep knocking on the and telling me to attend the practice but I can't. I'm not in the mood.

They just need be because of BTS. What if there's no BTS? I'm useless? I don't have anyone! No Dani, no hyungs a long time ago, no Juhyeon, no everything.

It feels like I don't have any purpose to live. My purpose is just... to sing and dance.

All of this is because... of me.

It's my fault! Everything is my fault! If I'm Taehyung, I won't forgive Jungkook! I broke his family for God's sake!

I couldn't even forgive myself!

I can't even understand why I agreed on fucking Juhyeon! Is it because I'm a womanizer? Am I a womanizer? Argh! I can't accept the truth! But I should.

I lost Dani because of my biggest mistake which is fucking Juhyeon. Argh! I'm not sure if they can still forgive me.

I'm still inside my room. My pillows are extremely wet. I can't describe how much pain I have right now. I can't count how many pieces of my heart are scattered on the floor.

~Knock knock~

I ignored it. It will just force me to attend the practice. I don't want to attend.

"Jungkook" the voice said but....

dO_Ob ???

IT'S TAEHYUNG'S VOICE!!!

Please don't punch me!!!!

"I'm sorry for your black eye. Please forgive me" he added. I won't open the door but because he really sounds concerned and worried. My eyes are still wet but I opened the door.

"What? Y-You're crying?" he asked me. I just looked down. I want to say sorry but I can't speak. But instead, it made me cry harder.

"Shhh don't cry" he said and..... HUGGED ME!!!!

But it's comforting! d^_^b

Because of this, I stopped crying.

"I understand you, Jungkook. I'm just worried for you... I'm really sorry about yesterday. I punched you hard. I'm really sorry"

We broke the hug and he looked at me, straight to my eyes. "Shit" he mumbled. I gave him a confused look.

"Tomorrow is an another music video shooting. Heck! Your black eye! We need to cover that thing... I know! Wear sunglasses tomorrow!" he said.

dO_Ob

Music video shooting?!

"Damn it! It's my fault. I'm sorry again!" he bowed to say sorry.

"Hyung...." my voice cracked.

"What?" he said while standing straight.

"I'm sorry for everything. It's my fault, hyung. I'm sorry for destroying your family! I'm sorry for making you depressed before. I'm sorry for being a black sheep in BTS. I'm sorry for making Juhyeon pregnant. I'm sorry for everything I did. It's all my fault! This is my fault that's why I deserved this!" I said and pointed my black eye.