Lace still hasn't come back yet so I decide to set up my new laptop. It took me a long time to finally settle down and continue on with my netflix. I had to find one of the papers I got on the first day in order to connect with the wifi on campus, then I had to quickly set up the computer with emails and all that. I fell asleep during the movie and woke up to see that it was dark out. Now I'm left with nothing to do, no homework or anything. I don't really feel like watching another movie because I'll probably just fall asleep again.
Maybe I shoould call Harry?
No what am I thinking I can't call him. He either wouldn't come or he'd probably come to say that kissing me today was a mistake. Right? I pick up my phone and instead of texting Harry and getting rejected, I text Blake asking what she is up to.
Come to my dorm, the guys are here! She responds.
She sends me her dorm room and I put my hair in a ponytail and make my way down the hall.
"Charlie!" I hear Zayn say when he turns around the corner and almost bumps into me.
"Hey Zayn, are you headed to Blake's?" I ask and suspiciously look at him. He looks different. Something about him seems strange.
"Oh yeah I- I guess I am" his eyes are bloodshot and his words are spoken slower than normal.
"Zayn?" I look at him for a moment and can tell that he is for sure on something.
"Nevermind" I say not wanting to put him on the spot.
Blake's door opens where I'm greeted by Louis and Liam who appear to be leaving.
"Oh hey Charlie! We'll be right back we just have to go get someone." Liam says and follows Louis down the hall.
I wonder who they talking about? Why do they have to go get this person?
I walk in and spot Jesse lying on the ground with a beer in his hand, Derek and Blake laying on the beds with their phones and Niall sitting by the door softly strumming melodies on the guitar.
"Hey Charlie C'mon in! Oh and Zayn" Blake waves.
"Niall I didn't know you played the guitar!" I say slopping down next to Niall. I grab the guitar and play a couple songs I used to know.
"Well I didn't know you played the guitar!" he responds, clapping along with the beat.
"Yeah I took it up as a kid but stopped once I got older. I actually smashed my last guitar so I couldn't really play if I wanted to." I say still plucking the strings and humming along with the song.
Suddenly Blake's phone rings and I put down the guitar and sit up once she says it's from Harry.
"Hey, where are you?" she says putting it on speaker.
"She's back. She came by and wouldn;t leave. I don't know what to do she's askin-" Harry says nervously through the line before Blake picks up the phone and leaves the room.
Who is he talking about and why did he seem so frantic?
"Who was Harry talking about?" I ask, not specifically to anyone.
They all look at eachother and then back at me before Jesse finally speaks up.
"Michelle, Harry's ex that pretty much scr-"
"That's enough Jesse. This isn't our story to tell." Niall looks at me,"If you want to know about her Charlie, ask Harry."
My mouth opens but before I can ask more questions, Blake storms back in.
"I got to go to Harry's. Charlie he wants you to come too." Blakes says, grabbing her keys and nudging for me to stand up.
'Wait, why does he want me to go?" I ask.
The boys look at eachother and snicker, even Blake has a slight smile on her face.
"Am I missing something?"
"Charlie you really must be blind or something." Jesse says.
"I really don't understand" I dont get at what they are implying.
How am I blind? And what does that have to do with Harry?
"C'mon Charlie let's go before these boys say anything else." Blake says, walking out the door.
I follow her out of the building and into her car, where she blasts he loud alternative music. I cover my ears and wait for her to turn it down.
"Sorry." she says.
About halfway to Harry's I ask her what's been on my mind ever since I got into the car,
"What were they talking about in there?About me being blind or something?" I ask, gazing out the window at the trees blowing in the distance.
"Don't act like you and Harry don't have anything going on." She laughs.
"But we don't have anythng going on." I say.
"Whatever you say Charlie. But know that he tells me everything." She says, glaring at me.
I gulp.
Does that mean she knows about today? That we kissed?
I don't want anybody to know about that. Mostly because it was a mistake. I shouldn't have kissed him back and Harry probably didn't even know what he was doing. It's all a mistake.
We pull into Harry's driveway and park next to his car. I see Harry sitting on the steps smoking a cigarette and drinking a beer.
"Hey" he says to Blake as we approach him.
"Hey" he says, this time directed to me with a light smile on his face.
"Im gonna go inside and get a drink. You want anything?" Blake asks me.
I shake my head no and join Harry on the steps.
I grab a cigarette from the pack laying next to Harry and put it in my mouth. Harry pulls out his lighter and lights the cigarette for me. With one puff I'm already calm. The nicotine burns through my lungs, but it feels too good.
"So I wanted to talk about today." he says.
I pull out my cigarette quickly and exhale.
'I wanted to be the first to say that it was a mistake. "
"A mistake? Wait what was?" he asks, confusion evident across his face,
"The kiss." I say.
Like he doesn't know? He was probably thinking the same thing but didn't want to say it to hurt my feelings. I spared him the guilt of making me feel bad and spoke for the both of us.
"Oh. I-" he says, looking down at his shoes. His face went from being confused to hurt?
"I know you probably didn't want to say it first so I saved you and said it for you." I inhale and exhale the smoke as I wait for him to say something.
He takes one last drag of his cigarette and then stomps it out. He stands up and looks down at me.
"You didn't save me from anything." he says. His eyes are dark with fury as he opens the door and slams it, leaving me out in the cold with nothing but a cigarette.
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