{Not so} Daily whines

Chapter nineteen - 3/5

*sighs*

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*sighs for a thousand years straight*

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hey :/ :/

so it's my PALS (the guy U KNOW THE GUY) (I hope lol)

yee so it's his birthday on Friday so me and my bp are meeting up with him on Thursday after school so we can give him the epic surprise of an awesome gift that cost us legit money.

So I'm kinda excited for that but

I'm kinda sad rn like idk I won't call it "depressed" bc I know I'm not depressed and that's not the right way to express it.

I'm just not feeling life rn, like I'm back at school and that's a big factor but yea there's also other shiz (like there always is) and idk I just can't really deal (like always)

:(

I just feel really down in the dumps rn and nothin seems to cheer me up for over 0.3 seconds.

I also have my formal coming up next month..

I'm stressing so much for that.

Like ik I have a date, which is "the guy" and all but we've only hung out a few times and it's never by ourselves like there's been others as well.

I just don't know what I'm supposed to do cause usually you'd just be like "oh ya doesn't matter cause I'll just chill with all my friends hehe it'll be FUN"

yea well

no.

I haven't got any of those so where does that leave me? oh yea stressed and worried and feeling sick.

I've talked to my friend but she was like "oh at least ur going w him it'll be fine. Ur just overthinking it blah blah"

UMM LISTEN UP K

u don't know what it's like, u don't even go to school wtf, u don't even care, kill myself.

I'm just really scared like how do I dance?? It's a goddamn formal so that's like one of the things you do but HOW do you do that when your whole friendship is based off social media.

I'm fucking nervous

I feel sick and I don't even want to go. But I know I have to. I have a dress, hair and makeup booked, shoes and clutch bought, everything.

All I need are the tickets, which are limited, and then I'm ready.

When I read this back in the future (trust me I will I get bored LMAO) I'll be like well it was either awesome or shit and I'm 98% sure it will be the latter.

*ANOTHER PROBLEM*

I have a crap tonne of internals coming up. I'm waiting to hear back about two I've done, which could give me 8 more credits if I pass both.

I have 11 so far so then I'd have 19 (you need 80 to pass)

ANYway so I have a science internal coming up that's about fungi and bacteria.

I don't know Jack shiz.

I also have an art internal which we are getting mid finish marks back tomorrow or the next day for. So the teachers are telling us how we're going.

I'm going South thanks for asking.

I have another food internal which is coming up later in the term, along with another Geography one, along with another Maths one.

All this and I stress enough from Art alone.

I ALSO. have a speech coming up sometime at the other end of the term (in maybe 5 weeks or so).

I HATE SPEECHES.

KILL ME NOW BEOFRE IT HAPPENS.

like if y'all gonna make me do a speech I better be becoming president or some shiz fam

I swear tah gosh.

YEEZUS IM HONESTLY SO STRESSED RN.

I have to worry about;
Art
Formal
My birthday.

OMFg my birthday.

It's my 16th

I have 2 friends.

2 friends = small asf party

= WTF DO I DO FAM

leave ur ideas for my sick party here:

comment here for an invite:

SKUXXXX

OH yeAH

*ANOTHER PROBLEM*

I have to learn the road code.
I have to get my learners right after my bday.

Kms
kms
kms
kms
kms
KMS

The only good thing RN is twd and the fact that teen wolf is back in June.

OTHERWISE

my life is pre shit

*drops mic*

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Hey so yea.. interestingly awful

:/ :/

-Logan