I love you , Why can't you love me back?

P35-desicion making

I have runny nose:( and I kept on sniffing while typing this chapter and looked like Im crying:D ahaha.
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LUHAN'S POV
I stayed on our hang out place until 8 pm..
the boys are so noisy that I can't even think..
Chanyeol and Baekhyun would jump on the couch while singing random songs..
Sehun and Kai were arguing because of billiards..
Lay was playing his guitar while Xiumin watched him while eating..
Kris, Suho and D.O were watching pirates of the carribean.. While Chen was just silent sitting in the corner.

"aiiissshhh!! so noisy!" I shouted.. but they just ignore me.. as if I didn't exist.
then Suho sat beside me and patted my shoulder..
"what's wrong Luhan?" he asked.
"what am I going to do?" I cried.
"gosh.. this is a big problem" he muttered. Though I didn't pointed out my problem. He always know what I am thinking. He has that motherly like power, If you get what I mean.?
" you know what Luhan.. think of it as a puzzle, don't waste your time trying to place people where they don't fit" he adviced.

"who do you love the most?" he asked.
"I'm confused.. Ji eun and I were together for 3 years.. While Hee Rin, we've just been together for almost a year" I said.
"look.. Don't base your love on how long you've been together.. Just listen to your heart.. Who's name does your heart shouts?" he asked..
I stared at him in awe as I felt my heart beating so fast..
"remember what Johnny Depp says? If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second" he smiled.


[A/N: here's the background music:D listen to this as you continue reading the next part..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5w_gcjM85bI]

YOUR POV
it was already 11 pm when I got home.
I opened the door quietly so that Luhan won't hear it.
I tiptoed as I was heading to my room..
I was about to open the door when a pair of arms wrapped around my waist.
I was shocked to care.. My body froze as my heart skipped a beat.

I can't turn around to face him.. I can't look at him..
so I closed my eyes to hold my tears that are threatening to fall.
Luhan was backhugging me..
we stayed like this for a minute or two..
and out of nowhere.. I wanted to stop the time and live in this hug forever.
I can feel his heartbeat as he channels to my back. The feeling when his warmth subdues the coldness all around.
I can feel his breath upon my neck..
"I miss you" he whisper into my ears.
those words.. those words are what I've been longing to hear.
he went to turn me around to face him with his hands on my shoulders.
I keep my head down so I won't see his face.
"Hee Rin, look at me" he said.
I don't want to.. I don't want to face him!
"I-I'm tired.. I need to sleep" I said as I turn my back on him.. But he grabbed my wrist. He won't let me go.
"please.. I want to talk to you" he begged. I just sighed.
"Luhan.. please... Don't make it so hard on me" I said in low tone.
"please just look at me" he whispered.
"I'm sorry" he mumbled.
so I turn to look at him and met his eyes.
now... here I am again, I had fallen to his trap again.


LUHAN'S POV
I waited for Hee Rin.
I won't let this day pass without talking to her.
as soon as she enter the house, I can't control myself that I backhugged her gently.
I miss her so much..
I felt like nothing in the world matters as I tighten my hug.
Hee Rin didn't move.. She just stay silent..
I miss the fragrance of her hair..
I miss the warmth of her body as it touched mine.
her face was hidden and she keeps her head down when I turn her around to face me..
I asked her to look at me but she don't want to.. She said that she's tired..
but I know that she's just making excuses to avoid my gaze.
"I'm sorry" I mumbled..
then she finally turn to look at me.. Her eyes was so gentle that when you look at it, your problems will be gone. It's like when you stare directly into the shining star called sun.

"do you hear me?" I asked as I rubbed her arms.
then her eyes becomes watery..
her tears began to fall from her innocent eyes.
she cried as if the entire world and all of it's beauty had come to an end..
then she start hitting me on my chest.. I just let her be..
"I hate you!! I hate you!!" she cried..
she looks so fragile that I can't bare to watch her crying like this.. because of me..
I tried to stop her but she won't let me..
so I hug her tight.. tighter that I burried her face in my chest as she continues to cry.
I ran my fingers through her smooth and silky hair.
I hug her tight as I repeat saying sorry for the nth time.
then after some few minutes.. she slowly stopped from crying.
she sobbed as if she were a mere child and lost in a new city..

we sat on the couch as silence filled the room..
I just looked at Hee Rin and held her hands.
"Hee Rin.. what do you want me to do?" I asked.
"don't ask me Luhan"
"you know in your heart what you wanted to do" she added.

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I'm so dramatic again:D keke..
anyways..