We all went our separate ways once we made it back to the hotel. Lana came to my room of course, but all I could think about was Keri. He's been on my mind everyday since we've started hanging out and even more now since he's admitted how he feels about me. I really do like him, a lot.
Besides him, I've been thinking about this baby too. My mind still isn't made up whether I'm going to keep it or not. I love kids and I wish to have some in the future, but if I have them I want to have them with a financially stable household along with a husband and father. I don't want to struggle, I don't want to be a single parent, and I don't want my baby daddy to be wild, crazy, uncontrollable, and on drugs....hence--Stokely. I want to give this child the life and environment it deserves and right now I can't provide that and I damn sure don't want to put any load on anyone else's shoulder if they choose to be in a committed relationship with me. I'm not ready all of that.
Lana
I love you so much baby
Toni
Mmmwah
Lana
Your kisses give me life
Toni
They do
Lana
I want to make love to you right now
Toni
Lanaaaaa
She kissed me and pushed me onto the bed crawling on top of me. She sucked on my neck causing a soft moan to escape my mouth. She managed to get my clothes to my underwear. She worked her way down kissing me until she reached her destination and did whatever she felt was necessary to my body and I enjoyed it immensely.
Lana
You taste so good baby
Toni
Mmhmm
Lana
I don't want to leave tomorrow
Toni
Awwww
Lana
If I didn't have a tour of my own I swear I'll be here with you all day everyday. This being apart shit sucks.
Toni
Awwww
Lana
But for now it's my turn
Toni
Turn for what?
Lana
For you know I just did you so return the favor.
Toni
Ohh um okay
Lana
Now why you acting like you don't want to do it?
Toni
I actually don't want to
Lana
Babyyyy
Toni
I'm sorry I'm just a little tired and you just did me so now I'm really tired baby
