Melting Your Metal Heart

disturbed feelings

Seokjin pov

After Master's order i quickly left the living room crawling. I had to control myself from making any sound because i was having so much pain. Very slowly i reached my room. I quickly packed my bag as per today's schedule, took my clothes and went to take a quick shower as master will leave house in next fifteen minutes so i have to do everything very fast. But i didn't dared to disobey the order i was doing everything while crawling even when i was in my own room and no one was there for supervision or punish me. I know consequences of disobedience very well.

So for my own safety from another punishment i went through everything while crawling. Now after showe, i took my bag from floor, hung it on my wounded back. I took a deep shaky breathe as my back started to pain instantly, i again started to crawl. I know very well that i have spent more than 10 minutes in my useless chores and now i barely have five minutes and master's car is out in parking lot of mansion means far from entrance gate. And i have to crawl all the way there.

I reached living room and stopped due to too much pain.

"Slave!!! What are you doing here? Wasting time when master have to wait for you." It was Jackson sir he said very strictly that i had to hold myself from flinching.

I didn't said anything i just hung my head low. I know i am always a mistake box. I can't even obey a single order properly. I know i deserve to be punished. Maybe sir will also punish me just like yoongi sir did. Even when my right to walk is snatched i am still not learning. I am really a wlvery I'll mannered slave. Master is righ..

"Will you keep kneeling here like a stupid or get back to crawling, idiot!" Sir again shouted at me.

With a "yes sir" i started to crawl again. I reached the door of mansion and there are some stairs i slowly crawled down them. Then i started to go towards parking but it is more painful because i had to crawl through garden and it has small stones. The stone are hurting my knees as well as my already injured palms.

Only if i hadn't been selfish enough when i waited for my pain to reduce and kept doing the work in the morning then i would not have been punished with more pain. Master is right i never learn until i recieve worst.

After a little more steps or actually not steps it's crawls. So after some more crawls i felt lots of stickiness in my palms so i shifted my gaze towards them and saw my own hands bleeding badly. But i had to ignore them as i can't afford to do another mistake. Because master might have reached his car and i can't be more late.

When i reached near parking i was so happy i released a sigh of relief as master is still yet to arrive. I slowly made my way towards his car for which i know i will get punished later. Because my hands will make the floor dirty. And master does not like it when i make his highly valuable floors dirty with my filthy, useless, as well as stinky blood.

Master hates it whenever i stain his royal tiles or wooden floor. I know i am for an extra punishment. I just hope that i don't mess up something else.

"Good to see, atleast you learnt to be on the given time." I heard master saying it.

"Yes master." i said i know master wants an answer and atleast i should do one thing properly.

"Tsk tsk, will there ever be a time when you will get something 100% right? Never!!" Saying this he slapped me. Then continued "see you made the whole floor dirty."

I know i did and therefore i will get punished despite of coming on time. Well it's not like i can apologise. Because slaves don't deserve forgiveness they deserve punishment. And therefore i am not allowed to even say sorry for it. So i just kept my head down and waited for order.