I Didn't Know • Tomboo •

• Chapter 38 •

"It's nothing really- You're my best friend." He smiled back to me.

I hugged him and he got a bit suprised, but hugged me back. Then I said, "Y'know, it's a bit colder out here than in the room. You could sit in there with me if you'd like?"

He shook his head, "Have time with each other. You need it."

"Please. Just sit with us." I held out my hand for him.

He took it and stood up, following me inside. Ranboo seemed half asleep in the hospital bed. Tubbo went and sat down on the big couch chair and grabbed a blanket from his bag he brought.

I went over to Ranboo and whispered, "Goodnight."

He hummed, "Goodnight."

I kissed his lips softly then went and sat with Tubbo. We sat close together with the blanket over us, just trying to keep warm.

Ranboo knocked out quickly, while Tubbo tried his best to stay up longer than me. Though he eventually fell asleep due to his lack of rest.

Now it was just me, awake in the hospital room. Alone, with my thoughts.

...

I shouldn't have hugged you back at the airport. I never should've held or kissed your hand. I shouldn't have taken the pictures of us. I never should've let my feelings surface. It should've been platonic.

Should've, shouldn't have, but all I want now is to keep you safe.

I know that Tubbo's right.

And so....I'm gonna let it be.

I never should've said, "I love you", especially when it meant something different then when you said it.

My soulmate...who wasn't meant to be.

I do love you, but not everything can happen in a certain amount of time. So, let's take our time.

Goodbye for now, my allium.

...

I fell asleep, after taking one last look around the hospital room. I was gonna let it all go- No more soulmates. If it was really fate, we'd find each other again one day.

• Time Skip •

Ranboo POV

I awoke from bed and got up. I yawned then stretched. I heard my mother, "Mark! It's twelve, you should be up by now!"

I walked out my door and downstairs, "Sorry mom. I probably stayed up late- Uh- Why're you here?"

"The doctors said I should look after you for at least a week after your- concussion." She smiled.

I furrowed my brows, "Concussion?"

"Yep. Don't you remember?" She awkwardly asked me.

I took a quick think then nodded, "Oh yeah. Before leaving to the airport, I tripped down the stairs...right?"

"Yeah, you were out for a really long time." She frowned.

I laughed, "Sorry to worry you mom."

She shook her head, "No worries."

"Oh! Did you let Tubbo and Tommy know about it? I was supposed to go and meet them, remember?" I asked.

She nodded, "Yeah, they know. But take your time to recover- Then you can go vis- meet them."

I sighed, "I really thought I'd meet them by now."

"Yeah, well....Soon, okay bud?" She said rubbing my arm.

I nodded, "Yep- So, did you make food? I'm really hungry."

"Yeah!" She grabbed my hand and led me over to the table.

When she let go of my hand I noticed some rainbow bracelet on my wrist. I furrowed my brows, "What's this?"

I slid it down and saw my wrist was sorta red. My mom's eyes widened, "The bracelet must be giving you a rash."

She took it off me. I grabbed the bracelet, "I- I want it."

She gulped, "Why?"

I shrugged, "It feels....important."

She smiled, "Okay."

I put it back on despite my rashy wrist and then went on my phone as I waited for breakfast to be served.

Tommy POV

It was only 8pm, and I was back home now. It was nice to be in my bed. I'd missed it. But, I missed him more...

I couldn't stop looking at it. The stupid grey allium. Taunting me, reminding me. It was so angering, and saddening.

But it was sometimes....good?

I mean- At least I knew it was real. That it had all happened before. And, even though he couldn't remember...I could. So, that was, nice- I suppose.

I miss you, I dunno what you're doing. I'm not sure if you think of me...us. I hope you still feel it- Love for me. Because- I still love you. Even if it's platonic. Day by day, my love grows stronger.

It sucks that it took fading to get to this point, but it's so hard to get to you. Countless thoughts of you being here. Thousands of miles to be with you. I just want to hear your voice.

It's been a week, and I wish I could see you face to face without a screen cutting through. I wish this wasn't so hard.

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