I Didn't Know • Tomboo •

• Chapter 38 •

Tommy POV

Night came and I needed to speed up my process. I was trying to gather up the courage to tell him how I feel. I couldn't find it in me though.

I kissed Ranboo's hand, "I'm gonna go use the restroom. I'll be back in a bit, mkay?"

He nodded then brought me down and kissed me softly. I blushed lightly smiling and he said, "Don't take too long."

I nodded then pulled away and walked out. Tubbo forced his eyes open, "Tommy! Uh- where are you going?"

"The restroom." I replied.

He got up, "Alright, I'll come with."

"I'm not a baby, I can do things by myself." I said, only slightly annoyed, but more concerned for his lack of sleep.

"You are when you pull stupid shit like, y'know what." He crossed his arms.

I sighed, "It won't happen again...I just wanna pee."

"Fine, I'll wait for you outside the restroom. You get five minutes- That's plenty of time." He said insisting he follow.

I rolled my eyes and we walked over to the restroom. I went in and Tubbo waited outside as he'd said.

After I'd gone to the restroom and finished washing my hands, I stayed in there for a little while.

I have till midnight, then....Our time is up.

I've been trying to say it. But everytime I do, there's no warmth to either of our wrists because we both know I say it with platonic love for him.

I just wish I could save us. I want to be with him. And I know I'm taking forever, but-

Maybe I need to-

"Tommy?" There was a light knock and the sound of Tubbo's concerned voice.

I opened the door, "Just in time."

He smiled and then we walked back. As we were doing so I asked him, "Tubbo?"

He hummed, insisting he was listening.

"If the marks fade- And we choose for them to fade....Do you think he'll grow to love me again- Like, the way he does?" I asked awkwardly and sorta nervous.

He nodded, "Ofcourse he will. I mean sure, it'll take him time, but....Even if his memories and mind are wiped- The feelings he holds for you, won't go anywhere."

"Hm..." I hummed thinking.

He smiled softly, "It's like this- If you have a significant other, you go through things with them, experience things with them. Wether it sometimes be firsts or not. When it all comes crumbling down and you split- Deep down you're always gonna hold a portion of love for them. Wether your mind is against it or not, your heart will always remember what it felt like...How you felt for them....And- It never really goes away."

I smiled a little, "Huh...I like that."

"Mhmm, so don't worry. If you can't make it in time....You two can always just let it fade. Plus, who hasn't heard of lovers without soulmate marks?- Maybe you need to let the tattoos fade in order to learn how to love one another." He suggested as we reached Ranboo's room.

I nodded, "Right..."

He sat down in the chair, "There's always a chance, soulmates or not."

I smiled, "Thankyou Tubbo....You've helped me a lot- Thankyou so much."