Chapter 52 // Post

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•Calum

My fingers played with the strings, trying to get the notes right. I kept grumbling under my breath. Nothing was sounding pleasant and I continued to make mistake after mistake. Maybe my head is too dizzy to be practicing right now, but I was terrified that the same thing would happen on stage tonight.

I felt completely numb. I was ignoring every emotion possible, just putting all of my energy into my music. I didn't want to think about anything or anyone. I needed to get the old Calum back and start partying and hooking up with girls just for the brief thrill of it. There may not be any love involved, but that was much easier than feeling this hurt.

Luke cautiously sat down next to me. I could feel his blue eyes scanning over the scene, but I didn't bother to make eye contact with him. I really wasn't in the mood to speak with anyone.

"You know your phone has been going off for the last hour," Luke stated timidly, clasping his hands together as he played with the silver ring that he occasionally wore.

"Yup," I deadpanned, tightening up the strings.

"And you're not even going to read them?" He questioned, making me want to roll my eyes.

"Fine," I groaned, reaching over to the side table to grip my phone that was vibrating out of control, while still keeping the curve of the bass over my thigh. I unlocked the screen to view the messages, but I didn't even need to open them to know who they were from.

From: Cassidy Gold- calum please just let me explain something
From: Cassidy Gold- i really need to talk to you
From: Cassidy Gold- don't ignore me it's important

From: Cassidy Gold- ok i know you don't want to talk to me and i don't blame you but please just at least read this
From: Cassidy Gold- i never slept with troy. i only said that to make you mad or jealous because you aggravated me. idk why i did it, i acted on impulse and i really regret it i'm so sorry
From: Cassidy Gold- i've always been so honest with you and have never lied to you before idk why i lied i'm an idiot

From: Cassidy Gold- i'm really sorry just know that you are special to me and i do love you and i probably always will and that sex is still important to me and i hope it will be for you too
From: Cassidy Gold- u have every right to be pissed at me bc i messed up big time i just hope you can somehow forgive me for lying it was such a stupid thing to do. i wasn't thinking at all

From: Cassidy Gold- i don't think you're gonna answer and that's fine i don't deserve it. i should have just explained to you that troy tried to kiss me but i said no bc of you. idk why i had to open my mouth and say that. it was totally out of spite

From: Cassidy Gold- just be careful and make good choices and have a good tour okay? i'm glad we at least got the summer together and made up after all those years i hope the same thing doesn't happen to us again and we can at least be on good terms

From: Cassidy Gold- ok maybe not since you still haven't answered any of these but that's alright
From: Cassidy Gold- goodbye calum
From: Cassidy Gold- i wish you the best

I sighed, flinging my phone back onto the table without a care in the world that I wasn't replying. The fact that she lied only fueled my anger even more. I mean, I'm reliever that she didn't sleep with Troy, but her lying to me just to push my buttons was something I wasn't okay with, even if I used to be guilty of the same crime.

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