Hard Boy ✔️

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Carter Jackson

I kissed her. I kissed Rory. I took her first kiss and maybe I'm selfish for doing so, but she just kept thinking I didn't want her and it's not that I didn't want her - I just don't want to hurt her.

Not that I'm planning to, I never want to hurt her. I just tend to hurt people unintentionally, and Aurora Holland needs no more hurt in her life than she already has. Her own cousin and mother treat her like shit, and it's very obvious that she's become dependent on me. The last thing I need is to fuck her over the way everyone else in her life has.

I paced my bedroom, rubbing my cheeks. What am I to do if she decides that kissing me was a mistake? We haven't talked, but it's because her mother's been forcing her to do more outing things with her family.

I don't know too much about the details, minus the fact that it was a load of shit. I don't know if Paige said something to her parents so they're forcing more 'family time', or if her father has decided to actually treat Rory like she's his daughter. Either way, they're out spending the day together as a family with Paige and her parents, and friends were unable to go.

And knowing Vivenne Holland, she was doing everything in her power to keep Rory from texting anyone, especially if she finds out it was me.

I don't know why Vivienne hates me the way she does. Maybe it's because I'm the only person around Rory who's caught on with the way she's treated, and I'm the only one bothered to do something about it. Sure, others only know an extent, but that extent that they knew was still too much to just sit around and do nothing about.

Paige, Jason, and Harold Holland fall into that category. I guess you don't need to count Jason Holland, simply because he's a child and even if there was something he wanted to do about it, he can't.

But Paige - someone who was constantly around Rory all the time - you'd think even if Rory never opened up to her about it, she'd catch on. I was only around Rory for a few weeks before noticing something like this.

Logan, I guess, can be excluded from that as well. Vivienne didn't know Logan was hiding out in Rory's bathroom, simply due to Rory being afraid of getting caught with a boy in her room.

However, had that been me hiding in her bathroom? The moment I heard Vivienne say one rude comment, I'd have been out spewing hateful words. I don't give two fucks that our fathers work together, I don't give two fucks that Vivienne has her husband wrapped around her finger.

Nobody talks to Rory that way - family or not.

I can't explain the things I feel for Rory, considering it's something I've never felt before. I never even felt this way for Ashley - and we were dating.

Well, I guess most people wouldn't consider it dating. She moved here, put on that beautiful angelic act that she was this perfect little human that did nothing but love everyone - yet she was the complete opposite.

She's nothing but the devil in disguise. She's evil and will do anything and everything to get what she wants. She doesn't care who she hurts, even if it's someone she claims to love.

I've never hated someone as much as I hate Ashley, which says a lot because I dislike people more than I like them.

However, that being said, I've thought less and less of Ashley and our bad blood the more I've been around Rory. Rory makes me forget about everything that's happened to me and the things I've done to other people. She makes me think that love exists and is worth the hurt that comes with it.