Swear Jars and Babies (Book Four)

Chapter Fifty-Five

Chapter Fifty-Five

Goodbye my almost lover

Goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

I wish I could say everything went back to normal after that...

That we fell back into our normal patterns and went back to being us.

It wasn't that easy though.

Things still weren't the same...

And it sucked.

But what could we do about it?

We had three kids to take care of now.

We were lucky to be alone for even a minute.

But even when we were it was just silence.

Neither of us wanted to talk about it...

Neither of us wanted to break the thin sheet of ice that kept everything from falling to shit.

But to be quite honest... that sheet was breaking by itself.

Niall hadn't said anything about being pregnant since I had come home.

To be fair it had been two days, but he still should've said something by now.

I had even been dropping subtle hints...

But he'd just ignore them like I hadn't even said them.

I was getting frustrated to be honest, but I couldn't ruin this.

I couldn't ruin the sense of everything being okay just yet.

So that's how we found ourselves sitting in the back yard, a blanket on the grass with the twins laying on it comfortably. A.J. was running around with his stuffed elephant, making plane noises as he did so.

Niall was on his back, looking up at the sky as if he was watching the clouds. I however was sitting up, keeping a careful eye on A.J.

"I think we should move." Niall suddenly said, catching me slightly off guard.

"What?" I asked, not really sure if I heard him right the first time.

"I think we should move... Find a bigger place."

"What's wrong with the one we got? We've got plenty of room for our little family Niall... Sure A.J. and Jonah will have to share a room once they're older but it'll be okay." I said, shrugging as if it wasn't a big deal.

But on the inside I was kind of freaking out.

Was he gonna say it?

Was he going to tell me?

"What... But what if we had more kids Harry? Where are they going to sleep?"

"We can figure that out when it's time to. You're not pregnant or anything right now so it's not like it's a top priority. We've got time Niall."

"What if I was though?"

"Then we would figure it out." Dammit Niall just say it.

Why wasn't he saying it?

Was it so hard to say three words?

But then again it took him almost a year to tell me he loved me...

He has issues with three word sentences...

"Okay..."

"Why?" I bit my lip, the anticipation nearly killing me.