"I can go through all the hardships to spend few moments with you."
"I want to sleep with you, Chae"
7 words that took my breath away. I mean, we usually do sleepovers here and there but it just feels weird coming from her mouth. She typically tends to barge in my room with pillows and blanket on her hands and I automatically get what it means. But right now, this is a little different.
"You are such a baby. Do you really want to?" I hesitated a bit.
"Of course I do, so, please?"
"Okay, then. How can I resist you? Wait for me. I'll just take a shower." I turned around to step outside her room but....
"Chae! Can I go with you?" I was astounded by what I've heard.
"Come here, Lis" I said signaling her to come to me, I was smiling and she seems to be so excited.
"Are we going now?"
"No" I uttered with my pokerface.
I flicked her forehead and pinched her cheeks
"Naughty, Lalisa. You take show, too IN YOUR OWN BATHROOM ,alright? You might get sick." Before I made my way out, I saw her looking dumbfounded. Haha. That's what you get for teasing me.
I went inside my bathroom and did my rituals. I walked towards my closet which is right across from my vanity mirror. I got the white pyjama set which our fans gave to us; I looked at the mirror for the nth time to make sure that I look good.
Lisa's room is just 7 steps away from my room. I barged in and saw her standing in front of the room as if you were talking to your self.
"Hello! Hello!" I said. I noticed that you are wearing the same pyjama as mine. I looked at your clothes and but scanned me from head to foot.
"Is there something wrong with me?" I asked worriedly
"You look perfectly fine, Chae. you just look more...."
"More?"
"More beautiful, there! I said it." Lisa said. I blushed, not that it's the first time she complimented me but i really felt her sincerity.
"I always look beautiful, you just seem to focus your eyes to Jennie." I murmured. It's true. I always try my best to look good for her to the point that I became shopaholic because I wanted her to just lay her eyes on me. But no matter what I do, she always end up complimenting Jennie even more so I gave up and find myself petty for doing such things.
"But you look more beautiful than her in my eyes."
"HAHAHAHA IS THAT A JOKE? Because it is funny. Am wearing pyjamas and you're telling me that I look good? You must be really out of your mind." I really wanted to believe her but the dark side in me won't let me.
"It's not. I'm just stating a fact here. And you look best when you are simple." She rolled her eyes on me.
"Fine." I said and climbed up to her bed. "I'm so sleepy, Lisa."
"Come here, lay your head down in my arms. Yaaaah! I don't know if I should feel happy that we really don't have much schedule, i mean it means more time to relax but I really wanted to have our big comeback." she began to rant.
We had our mini comeback, performing here and there and I can say that blinks really loved it and I'm thankful that we won several times. It was really good to see them every fansign events eventhough it's a little tiring, nothing can compare to the love that they give us. Unfortunately, it was over. We have to wait for the next and I don't know when will it be.
"I know, I really wonder what's stopping Sajangnim but I really don't want to think about it. Goodnight, Thank you for today, Lis." I whispered just enough for you to hear and I kissed your cheeks.
After a while....
"Lis, is the universe infinite or is it just big?"
"Why do we press harder on the remote when the batteries are dead?
"Why do the dentists talk to you when they know you can't respond? What do you think, Lis?"
"Why do they call it fun size M&M's? I really don't get it. What's fun in getting small amounts of it?"
"Chaeeeee. I'm so sleeepyyyy. Let me sleeeep. If I ever hear you talked again, I swear, I'll kiss you!" I was taken aback by how blatant you are.
What am I going to do? It's like the sleepyheadedness in me left my body. I am currently facing her mentally memorizing her features. Her skin is so soft just like a baby and I can smell her perfume, Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Charms. A little sniff won't hurt, right? Hihihi.
.
*sniff* *sniff* *sniff* She really smells good.
"Do you know that inhalants are highly addictive? Do you want to get addictive to me?" I was so shocked when you speak. I stopped inhaling her scent.
"I'm sorry, i'll just sleep in my room." I was so embarassed by what I did, I'm not like this but these past few days my gayness towards her is really showing and I seem to lose all control with my body
"You're not going anywhere, you'll sleep here." Lisa stated and pulled me. It's not really a statement though but more of a command. And I am here, obliging.
"Why can't you sleep, Chae?"
"I don't know." Looking down.
"I know the reason why."
"What is it? Please, tell me so I can't disturb you. I really don't want to bother you." I feel so ashamed that i am really disturbing her. I know she's tired because she took me to numerous places today and she badly needed to rest but here I am, impeding her sleep.
"It's because I forgot to give my baby chipmunk a goodnight kiss." She leaned down and kissed my forehead and the temple of my head. It was a pure bliss.
Just like magic, I drifted off to sleep.
4am
I suddenly woke up when I heard Lisa's sob. She's still asleep maybe she's having a nightmare. I gently tapped her arms and she opened her eyes, she hugged me so tight and began to cry.
"Shhhh. I'm here.It's just a dream, Lis. Don't worry about it." I caressed her back but she seems so scared. I wonder what her dream was all about. I really don't want to ask her right now because she's really not stable, I'll just let her open up to me when she's ready. She calmed down and all I can hear is her little snores. I lay her on her bed.
One thing that I noticed is she's sweating a lot, which is really odd because she doesn't usually sweat. I touched her forehead and I know she's sick. I quickly went to my room and get my medicine kit. Good thing mom gave me this. I get her temperature and yep, 38.2°C
I tiptoed as I made my way downstairs. I really don't wamt to wake up Lisa and Jisoo Unnie. I brought out the things that I will need. I prepared egg porridge, wheat bread, hot tea, bananas and yogurt then I put it on the tray. I proceed to your room and I saw Jisoo Unnie standing in front of you.
"Unnie, you're awake. Did I wake you up?" I asked.
"No, but she did." You said while pointing to Lisa. I laughed a little when I see Unnie's eyes half-closed. Lisa really disturb her sleep.
"Didn't you hear her? She's looking for you, She's shouting your name. Gosh, I'm still sleepy." Jisoo unnie added.
Why is she looking for me? I looked at her and she's still peacefully sleeping.
"I'm sorry, Unnie. Lisa has a fever. Go back to your room. I don't want you to be sick too. I can't handle two babies whining because they are sick"
"Can I just stay here?" Unnie asked.
"Yes, if you had your flu shot. I had mine so it won't be a problem but have you, Unnie?"
"Not yet. I just really like the flu. But I'll leave you two, you need some quality time" She really is weird sometimes and that's one thing I love about her. Plus, she is so supportive about my feelings for Lisa.
"You take care of Lisa. I'll go back to sleep. Goodnight, Chipmunk." And she kissed my cheek. Uhh, sweet.😍
I sat beside Lisa and woke her up.
"Chae? Where have you been? I've been looking for you. I thought... I thought... you left me." I saw tears forming in her eyes.
"Silly! I won't do that. I'm sorry, I just prepared these." And pointed out the food.
"What for?" You seemed confused.
"Apparently, you have a fever, Lisa. Please, eat all of it so you can drink your medicine, okay?"
"Aww. Thank you for these, Chae." You hugged me.
"I promise when you get better, I'll take you to the places you wanted to visit. I'll spoil you." I assured her.
"You will? Yeheyyy! You are really the best, Chae. That's why I love you."
"And I love you too." I casually said. But she doesn't know that I love her more than that. That I'm willing to give up everything for her. To do everything for the sake of her happiness.
"Thank you for the food, Chae. They are all good especially the egg porridge."
"I'm glad you liked it. Here, drink your medicine so you can rest." She drank the paracetamol.
"Wait for at least 30 minutes before you lie down. Okay? I'll just wash these. Wait for me." I kissed her forehead.
She just smiled at me. I made my way out and went to the kitchen. I was so busy washing the dishes when I felt someone's hug from behind. Just by the smell, I know who is it.
"Lisa, why did you follow me here? You should be resting in your room. So stubborn." I said to conceal my ecstaticness. If that's even a word.
"30 minutes is a long time and besides I really don't want to stay away from you."
"Why did you become so clingy these past few days? Is it because Jennie Unnie is not here?"
"No, why do you always have to bring her up into our conversations? Are you jealous?" I'm also asking myself why am I a pessimist? Maybe because I don't want to get hurt in the end. But there's a part of me that tells me that I should give Lisa the benefit of the doubt. And as of now, I'm choosing the latter. I'm choosing to be happy.
"I'm not." I felt your hug tighter and you placed your head on my neck.
"I'm done. Let's go upstairs so you can rest, Lis. You didn't get much sleep"
"Alright."
I feel sleepy but I really have to look after Lisa. I can sacrifice a day without getting a sleep just to make sure that she's okay. Besides it's already 7 in the morning. *yawn*I checked her temperature, 37.2°C Thank God it lowered down.
She's currently asleep in my lap and I am stroking her hair.
I realized that these moments with her...
These are the things that I wouldn't trade for anything else.