Me sitting here 4 days after that awful break up on my MacBook my mind blank. I can't stand my own mother. I feel numb. Last night my grandmother gave me some news. I'm not sure if it's good or bad. I'm not sure what I think.
She said she was going to put my mom in a rehab center. And that we were going to move far far away. All the way to California.I've always wanted to live there but I don't want to leave Illinois. I Don't want to leave Ava. I Can't leave her. She's really my only friend is miss. I'd miss her sooooooooo much. I don't think I can bare not seeing her.
But I'm gonna have to. We are leaving next week. I have to start packing. But I get a text from Ava.
(A-Ava C-Courtney)
A-hey
C-Hi !
A- Can I come over ? Like now
C- yeah... Is everything alright?
A- ill be there in 5
I don't really know what's wrong. I told Ava the day I found out that I'm leaving. And she didn't really react except she said she didn't want me to leave. And she wanted me to take her with me. But we don't talk about me leaving. It's too sad.
I sorta pace around my room watching for Ava through my window. Wondering why she's coming over so urgently. I must have not been paying good attention because the door bell rang. I basically ran down the stairs to the door. I open it to see Ava with tears streaming down her face.I hate seeing my best friend cry.
I almost immediately pull her into a hug. A tight hug. We kinda walk inside in the hug and I shut the door. I hear her quietly say in my ear "Court don't leave." "I'll miss you too much." I pull out of the hug and look her in the eyes and say " I have to. But we will talk everyday. We can Skype and we can visit each other. It will be alright. Now stop crying because you're gonna make me cry." She hugged me again and pulled away. " I just kinda realized what is happening." she said. "Yeah it's gonna be hard at first but it will be fine. You wanna help me pack? " I try to smile but failed. I'm sad too.
We spent the rest of the day packing and talking. We watched a movie and eat ice cream. And we packed some more. Days went by but they were all one big blur of packing and hanging out with Ava. Treasuring the time I have left with my best friend.
Two more days.
Ava and her grandma Mary came over and help us pack my grandmas stuff and kitchen stuff. Mary offering to have us over for dinner our last two nights here. We gladly took the offer.
Since my mom left for rehab a few days ago, my house has been peaceful and tranquil. To be honest I'm not going to miss her at all. I hope she gets her stuff together and starts a new life without my grandmother or me.
My grandma called the uhaul people to bring a big truck over and load our stuff for us.We also payed them to drive the truck to our new house in La and unload our stuff. My house is basically empty. Minus our beds and a few snack foods and suit cases of clothes.
Last day :(
We are about to have our last dinner in illinois.We just loaded our beds into the uhaul and sent the uhaul people off. I'm going to to hug my best friend one last time. I sat down at Avas Dinner table. Mary and my grandma on one side and me and ava on the other. We ate and made small talk not bringing up us leaving. After we ate me and Ava went to the couch and sat and kinda just took in each others presence as we watched tv in silence. My grandma helped Mary clean up and Mary gave us leftovers for the trip.
My grandma announced that it was unfortunately time to hit the road. The words I was dreading to hear.
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One day people will. Sorry for any errors.This one was kinda boring but it's something. Kinda sad seeing them sad.:(
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