Yoongi POV
I speed down the outdoor hallway and down the stairs as tears stream down my cheeks making my vision blurry. I finally make it outside and jog down the sidewalk with my chest heaving up and down.
"YOONGI!!" I heard but I shook my head and ran down the empty street at midnight. I can't face him I feel so ashamed of myself, I shoved my husband off me and screamed at him not to touch me.
"Yoongi!! Please stop" I heard, his voice sounded desperate.
The look in his eyes when I did that he looked so hurt and heartbroken. I can't face him I don't deserve him because I'm broken now, why would Jimin want me ever again?
I turned the corner next to some convenience store and slide to the ground holding my knees and started to cry uncontrollably.
I heard footsteps and heavy breathing I hide my head in my knees shaking like a leaf "Y-Yoongi?" He whispered the footsteps got closer while I sniffled into my knees "S-Sunshine?" He murmured
I just ignored him sitting on the cold wet ground my back against the brick wall "Baby y-your barefoot...I-I have your shoes" he mumbled.
"J-Just goes away" I whispered "I-I'm not worth it anymore" I sobbed I felt so utterly ashamed and worthless.
I heard movement around me and I peeked up to see my sneakers placed in front of me. Jimin was kneeling in front of me with tears in his eyes.
"B-Baby talk to me please" he cried "You are worth it and I won't leave you here" he whispered "I-I love you so much...p-please talk to m-me" he sniffled
"I'm sorry for running away...I-I'm sorry for p-pushing you off m-me" I cried "I-I'm just so sorry" I sniffled.
"It's okay baby, let's go back home it's cold and your barefoot" he whispered pushing the sneakers towards me "P-Please?" he added
"I'm scared..." I murmured "Y-You won't look at me the same" I whispered
He moved closer to reach out to touch me but then hesitated drawing his hand back "Absolutely nothing can change how I feel about you" he whispered and I locked eyes with him my chest swelling.
"J-Jiminie hold me" I sobbed clawing at his jacket "P-Please" I whispered
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We arrived back at the house after a slow walk back to the apartment. We didn't talk we didn't even hold hands the feeling weighed heavy on my chest that I was gonna tell him what happened to me. That he would never look at me the same. He will always look at me with pity or regret....or disgust
I sat on the couch holding my knees as Jimin moved around the kitchen I hear chatter and the kettle boiling until Jimin appeared back in the kitchen moments later with a cup of tea leaving it on the coffee table. He sat arm's length away from me on the couch he looked so tense his eyes were red.
"It's the mint tea you like..." he whispered "Do you want a blanket or maybe a bath? I can run one for you" he added
I stayed quiet my eyes on the steam coming from the warm cup of tea on the table "Do you want me to leave? I-I can stay somewhere else for a-awhile if I make you uncomfortable?" He murmured
I let out a sob "N-No No I don't want that" I cried to him and fell into his arms "D-Don't go anywhere" I sniffled.
He held me tight "B-Baby please tell me what's wrong? It's breaking my h-heart" he whispered I felt my whole body shake with tremors he just held me closer my head buried in his chest.
"K-Kinn one day brought me t-to this bar and at first I thought w-were we gonna drink but it was some poker game I guess..." I cried not being able to breathe or look at him "I was wearing a f-face mask the whole time b-but he made me take it off and the m-men at the game recognized m-me" I sniffled my chest feeling like it was being crushed by the memories the feeling of his hands on me.
"Yoongi" he whispered so gently and held me close.
"K-Kinn sold me t-to some guy j-just for an h-hour with me...he paid half a million dollars for an o-one hour" I sobbed
He held me even closer I felt him shaking and I don't know if it was from fear or anger probably both...
"H-He held me down o-on the bed then ripped my shirt open...kissed me a-all over" I sobbed "I-I yelled and s-screamed but he didn't stop! H-He tried to take off my belt b-but Kinn shot h-him while he was on top of me..." I sobbed "Kinn also tried t-to do the same thing he made me k-kiss him he forced me down on the bed but...he didn't in t-the end" I sobbed uncontrollably as Jimin squeezed me in his arms but I pushed away to look at him he blinked at my face like he didn't recognize me and it broke my heart because I knew this would happen.
"I feel so broken Jimin! I-I feel lost, like I can't find the old Yoongi anymore! He isn't here anymore he is gone!...I-I can't find him! The Yoongi you fell in love with is gone!!" I carried hitting his chest lightly" I pushed y-you off me! You're my husband and I shoved you off me!! When y-you touch m-me it reminded me of h-him...y-you must hate m-me now, I'm d-disgusting I-I let another man t-touch me" I yelled hanging my head low as sobs ripped through me.
"T-Those men touched me...kissed me they hurt me in so many ways" I cried
Next thing I knew Jimin was kneeling in front of me and gently grabbed my face, his teary eyes looking at me with so much sorrow and pain in them "I'm so fucking sorry" he cried while caressing my face softly
I shook my head my bottle lip wobbling "N-Nothing is your fault" I whispered to him then he buried his face into my lap.
"Please give me all of your pain! Give it all to me to carry so you don't have to...I can handle it so please give me all of your pain and suffering" he sobbed the cries ripping through his body as he moved his shaky hands to grab my face.
"It fucking breaks m-my heart to see you suffering so much and there is n-nothing I c-can do to help you...I-I failed y-you, I'm so sorry I'm so sorry sunshine" he cried
I fall into his arms and he held me tight we sat on the floor arms wrapped around each other "I-I feel so shattered Jimin and I c-can't put the pieces back together" I whispered
"I will pick up every piece until my fingers bleed I will be here for you when you're sad when you're happy" he whispered forehead pressed against mine.
"W-Would you still love me if I never wanted a kiss or to have sex ever again? I-I don't know if I want it e-ever again" I cried
"None of that matters to me...just hold my hand and be by my side I fell in love with your heart with your soul" he spoke up placing my hand on his chest to feel his rapid heartbeat "My heart will always belong to you no matter what" he added
I cup his face and let out shaky breaths "I-I love you Moonlight...so so much" I murmured
He pulled me into a hug "We will get through this I promise" he added
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Hello! It's April 26 and Yoongi is having his first solo concert in NY and I'm so freaking jealous!! I wanted to go so bad!!
But I'm so proud of him and wish him the best of luck 🤞