Portals To Another World

him

    Your fingers over the floral frame
    Slamming the picture down
    Lakes for eyes making it hard to see, but you're glad
    You don't want to see his smile
    You don't want to imagine his touch or his smell
    You're not over him
    You see him in some people
    Certain jumpers reminding you of his own
    Red tape across a kettle leaps into your mind
    His suit freshly pressed and his eyes soft
    Your first love and your first heartbreak
    Oh you wish to have him back
    Back in your arms and back in your life
    You'd trade the world and all your friends- guilt ripping into you
    Some memories are too hard to take, tossing and dreaming
    Toxic and poisoning rolling into your mouth
    Imagine the scene over and over
    He loved to write, you'd write together, laughing, talking all night
    You wonder how it happened
    Was it sudden? In the middle of a sentence? Was it slow?
    You want him back
    You'd trade everything everyone
    Guilt washes over you in waves an-