Being Normal Sucks (Louis Tomlinson FanFiction)

Chapter 42~ Because I Love You

What would Louis think about all of that? I got the impression that Liam and him didn't like each other as much as they liked the other boys. The dinner with them only reaffirmed the idea. So, I doubted that Louis would be happy if I didn't come home until the next morning. I just was hoping that Liam wouldn't ask the question that he always seemed to ask.

We reached the door to Louis and I's room, and Liam pulled me towards his chest. "I'm sorry about how I acted last night," he mumbled once I was looking at him. The words were almost so quiet that I didn't hear them, and I slowly pieced together what he had said.

"It's okay," I assured him, and I prayed that the night would leave off like that so that I wouldn't be pressured into doing anything. Liam pressed his lips to mine after hearing the words, and I draped my arms over his shoulders while leaning towards him. A goodnight kiss might make things better, but they couldn't fix everything. One thing that was really nice about it was that Liam's lips were soft and warm; they were perfectly kissable.

When he pulled away, he took in a few breaths to make his breathing stable. He looked into my eyes for a moment before he spoke again, "do you want to come to my room?"

"Liam-," I started. Of course, I was interrupted and I could already feel myself getting frustrated by his insistence.

"Niall and Jenny are out for the night," he told me. There was a long silence between us, and I could feel my normally strong resolve crumbling quickly. After glancing towards the door to my hotel room, I gulped and shifted my gaze back to Liam. "Sure," I mumbled. A large smile made its way onto Liam's lips, and I could feel my stomach churning in a horrible way. He grabbed my hand to tug me down the hallway towards his room. I couldn't help but to tug on my skirt and shirt with my free hand as if I was showing too much skin.

Liam opened the hotel room door quickly before closing it behind us and wasting no time in gently pushing me against it when it was closed. It was almost as if he was a blur of kisses; one was pressed to my cheek before he brought his lips to mine and kissed me rather roughly. I felt a little uncomfortable, and the feeling grew even more when I felt his hand creep underneath my shirt. I had given my consent, but I could stop him at any second and I was seriously considering it. The whole situation seemed wrong and weird. It didn't feel right, not with Liam.

His lips left mine before they moved to my neck. A small gasp left my lips at the foreign and admittedly pleasurable feeling. His kisses continued, and I could even feel his teeth grazing some of the sensitive skin on my neck. Before I could even think about what was leaving my mouth, I moaned out a name, "Louis."

My eyes snapped open just as I felt Liam's whole body go stiff and rigid. Slowly at first, he pulled away from me and a disheartened expression filled his features. "Oh," he drawled out the simple word. Then, a sort of bitter sounding laugh left his lips while he shook his head and let a disbelieving frown take over. "At the beginning, I got it, you know?" he started out, and his words confused me until he went on, "You said you're a virgin, and I thought 'okay, I can wait.' But we've been together for a whole year and nothing? I was starting to wonder if you didn't trust me enough or something, but now... Did you sleep with him?"

The implication was enough to make my cheeks heat up with anger. I would never cheat on someone; it was a horrible thing to do. "What? Why would you-?"

"I just want to know," he interrupted me and the look on his face showed me that he was no longer bitter. He just looked... sad. I couldn't explain it better than that even if I tried.

"No, I didn't. I've never even kissed him or anything like that," I answered him truthfully.

"Then why, Anna? Why his name?" he questioned. The words hit me really hard for some reason. There was this feeling of guilt in the pit of my stomach that I couldn't explain for the life of me. God, why had I said Louis' name in such an intimate time?

"I don't know," I replied with a frown. It was the truth; I couldn't figure out why.

"No?" he tried to verify, and I nodded when he looked up at me, "well, I think I do." My brows furrowed at that; I waited for him to explain his simple words. If he knew why then I was eager to know; I wanted to know why this all was happening. Did it have anything to do with the odd feelings that had been invading my every thought recently? He noticed my look, and he went on, "you love him don't you?" My eyes went wide at his words. I loved Louis? That couldn't be it...

"I-I," I stuttered out because I couldn't seem to find a proper answer.

Liam nodded curtly and went on because I couldn't, "you know, I saw this coming. I could tell that there was something between you two from the very beginning, and it sure as hell wasn't just a friendship. I mean, you guys have obviously known each other longer than we've known each other and you're a hell of a lot closer to him than you are to me." I wanted to tell him that he was wrong, but it was true; Louis knew a lot more than Liam did. I felt like I could tell Louis about it all. "Fuck, I don't even know what your favorite color is, Anna. What kind of relationship is that? A shit one."

"I'm sorry," I rushed out, "I'll tell you if you want, and-."

"No," he shook his head while he cut into my words once again. I snapped my mouth shut in order to listen to what he had to say next. "No, you don't have to do that, because we're over, okay? Even if you haven't realized it yet, I'd be willing to bet that I'm right about you loving Louis. I'm not going to force you to stay in a relationship with me, and-frankly-I don't want to be dragged along for a relationship that you're not even interested in."

"Liam," I began after he turned away from me a dragged a hand down his face with frustration and sadness. "I am so sorry for all of this."

"Don't worry about it," he sighed. I had my hand on the handle of the door to the room, but I stopped when he spoke again. "And please don't think that I'm doing this because I want to spite you or anything like that, because I love you. I really do, Anna, and I did all throughout this. It just isn't the same anymore, and I think tonight was just a confirmation of that. I want you to be happy; even if it's not with me."

"I want you to be happy too, Liam," I gave a sad little smile before stepping out of the door and shutting it behind me. I leaned up against the wall next to it and folded my hands in front of my face. A long and drawn out sigh slipped past my lips while I thought about what had just happened. Liam and I were no more, and I didn't know how to feel about that. It was almost as if a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, but I knew that I should feel bad about what had happened. And why the hell had I moaned Louis' name? I couldn't really love him, could I?

I forced myself off of the wall, and I headed down to my room. After sliding my card into the slot and opening the door, I pulled off my heels and tossed them into the closet by the door. The TV was droning on in the bedroom part of the room, and Louis was no doubt staring at the screen. My prediction was confirmed when I heard his wonderful chuckle after a joke was made in the movie he was watching. Slowly, I made my way further into the room, and Louis' eyes drew over to me almost immediately.

"Hey," I smiled.

"Hey!" he exclaimed excitedly while he sat up a little straighter in his bed. "I was starting to think you'd never get back." A frown took over my lips after hearing that, and he caught it, "you okay?"

I wiped it from my lips quickly, and I nodded, "yeah. Just was a long night."

"Oh," he simply replied before a smile stretched out his lips and he held his arms out towards me like a child would do to their mother. "Cuddle?" he questioned cutely. A huge smile broke out onto my lips, and my heart sped up at the simple gesture. After realizing my reaction, I couldn't help but to think back to Liam's earlier words about my feelings towards Louis. All that I thought after that was one simple word.

Fuck.

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Well, I hope that this was an interesting chapter for you all! Lots of stuff going on. I hope you guys enjoyed, and have a great rest of the day :)

-cow_queen