Darkness & Light Poems

Complicated

Complicated   

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Nothing comes easy,

You always have to work for what you want.

Even when your life has been hard,

Different from other people.

I believe I have always worked hard,

Trying always to be a better person,

Respecting others,

And having confidence that everything will work out.

But I'm having trouble,

Working hard on myself,

But once I'm out there in the world,

I always get the rug pulled from underneath me.

And I fall back.

What is the point of working hard,

If all the time you have to restart from the beginning?

Relearn everything.

I don't understand.

If we are really being tested,

How long will that last?

I've been tested my whole life.

When is it enough?

Or when will we give up.

Don't get me wrong,

I don't want to be simple,

Perfect,

Always right and never wrong.

But I would like to be more" normal".

Have normal issues,

Instead of being always about my health.

And worried about what other might say,

Or what they will do.

I've always been afraid of being abandoned by the people I trust and love,

Of being judged by the things I cannot change.

I understand no ones life is perfect,

But I always wished.....

That things would be less complicated,

More stable,

Instead of always the ups and downs.

And have more stability.

And to have the life I've always dreamed about. And to be happy with where I'm heading.

I know the grass isn't greener on the other side,

But it has to be better than this,

Right?

By : strength0629