Darkness & Light Poems

What Would You Do...? (Goes with My Dear Angels - A Letter)

This Poem goes with My Dear Angels - A Letter.  When I was asked to write the letter, I was also asked to write a poem.  If you haven't read My Dear Angels - A Letter, please do, you will understand a lot more about me and the topic than if you only read this poem on it's own. 

Thank You,

Strength0629

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What would you do…?

What would you do for a dream?

What would you do for your health?

What would you do for your sanity?

What would you do for yourself?

Would you put your dream on hold?

Would you risk everything to have it real?

Would you put yourself aside?

Put away your selfish needs,

To know that you’re killing a part of you,

A part of your soul,

A part of your heart.

I killed my dream,

I killed a part of my soul,

Part of my heart.

I paid a price,

A big price,

For a part of my health,

For a part of my sanity,

And for a part of myself.

I loved my dream,

I dreamed of it since I was a young little girl.

When I became sick,

I knew it wasn’t forever,

One day,

My dream would come back,

My dream would be reality.

I’d be happy,

Complete,

Whole.

Seeing ‘’little me’s’’ running around,

Seeing them smile,

Laugh,

I’d love them with everything I have,

Give them anything I could,

I would do anything for them.

I know a part of me that is left knows I did the right thing.

I did love them with everything I have,

I gave them anything I could,

And I did do anything for them.

I saved them,

Saved them from myself.

Saved them from getting hurt by me.

Saving them from the insanity that they could have had.

I saved them from being born,

From the hell they could have had from being raised by me.

That one day, they would hate me,

It wouldn’t have been their choice to be born,

In a house that wouldn’t be healthy.

Maybe taken away.

So I killed a part of me,

For you.

I would and did anything and everything for you.

Saved you for being sick,

Saved you from insanity,

Saved you from me.

Because I love you,

Because I love you more than I love me.

I put my selfishness aside,

My dream aside,

To make sure your worst nightmare didn’t become a reality.

For me to know you are safe,            

For me to know you are deeply loved,

Even if you never existed.

You three were my dream,

You were my hope,

You were my future.

I killed my dream, my hope and my future.

Now I need to built a new dream,

Begin to have hope again,

And to believe in a new future.

I know I did right by you,

Your happiness is more important than my own,

I will love you forever.

I do pray that when my time come,

I will meet you three,

And that you’ll be proud of the decision I made.

Happy with the life that I built,

My new dreams that I will had made reality,

That you looked down from heaven,

And that you will be proud of me.

Watch over me my darling three angels

By : strength0629