The Choice I Regret

What Next?

So here it is! i hope you like this chapter!

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Finn’s POV

Walking back to Rachel’s room I see through her bedroom window that spencer is in there, she’s putting a disc in the DVD player. I start to walk away but spencer makes eye connect with me and I hear her tell Rachel that she’ll be right back. Within seconds spencer is standing right in front of me and her eyes went directly to the bouquet of flowers in my hand. Her eyes slowly look back into mine as she says

“Those for Rach?” I look down at the flowers that were wrapped in pink with gold stars and smiled

“Yea, sorry I just left like that. I didn’t want to interrupt you two.” She nods slightly, she quickly looks at Rachel through the window, seeing her smiling while reading all her ‘get well’ cards.

“You want to go in there and talk to her?” I swallow, trying to figure out how to reply.

“y-yea, if that’s ok” she nods

“Just take it easy on her, she’s been through a lot remember?” I frown reflecting on everything and remembering I caused everything,

“I’ll be out here” spencer says walking towards the waiting room.

Walking near the doorway of Rachel’s hospital room I feel my hands begin to shake. Taking a deep breath I reach out to twist the door handle. And then before I knew it I was standing in the same room as the love of my life, my soul mate. Then woman that I haven’t been able to forget ever since I met her.

She was looking down at her cards and smiling cheerfully. As soon as she hears the door close she looks up and that’s when her smile fades. My heart instantly drops and it saddens me that she’s not happy to see me. There’s no sign of a smile anywhere. And it’s heartbreaking

“Hi” I say a little bit louder than a whisper.

She says nothing, instead she just continues to stare at me, almost in shock. I didn’t know what to do so I just stood there for what seemed like for ever. But then I noticed that she shifted her eyes to the flowers I was still holding.

“Um I got you these, I saw the wrapping paper and I thought of you straight away” I walk over to the little table beside her bed and place the flowers down. She moves around on the bed to make her more comfortable and I offer to help her with her pillows but she declines by shaking her head and without saying a word. I sit on the chair facing her bed and look up at her. She’s so skinny, how can I not know what was happening?

“I’m glad you’re ok” I smile at her hoping that will earn me just a small smile from her. But still nothing.

I know I caused her hell, but now I’m just confused. I haven’t heard her sweet voice in so long and I don’t know why she’s not talking to me. Sitting there in silence, I soon realise I haven’t apologized for everything I’ve done, well here i go

“I’m so sorry” I look straight into her eyes. We keep intense eye contact for a few seconds before she starts to shake her head, confusion strikes me straight away.

“It’s not your fault, I let too many things get to me.” she says softly and I can’t help but smile because this is the first times she’s talked to me. But I know that it wasn’t her fault, it was mine.

“No, I’m sorry for everything, from Quinn to the Baby to recently.” She looks at me and then to the door

“I’m gonna kill Spencer!” she shakes her head