Don't You Ever Let Me Go. (Jalex)

You're All I Know- Chapter 11 The End

[Jack's pov]

Zack and I walked back onto the bus. Tomorrow we would be going home, finally. Everyone that was in the lounge turned to look at us. "Where have you guys been?" Rian asked. Astrid just laughed, I think Zack told her. I guess she didn't tell anyone else. 

"We were at the arcade. Jack-o here needed to talk about some music related things." Zack lied easily, everyone seemed to buy it to. Maybe because they didn't think Zack was the lying type. 

"Oh hey Jack, Alex needs to talk to you back there." Flyzik pointed to the back lounge. I shook my head and sighed. I knew I would have to face him sometime, I just didn't know it would be this soon. 

I knocked on the back lounge door. I heard some shuffling around and then Alex yelled, "Who is it?" I hesitated to answer so I wouldn't have to talk to him so soon. I mean my thoughts are still jumbled in my head about the whole situation. "It's Jack." I yelled back. I knew I would have to do this sooner or later, and I guess it's better to just get this over with sooner. Alex does deserve some explanation right?

Once Alex let me in the back lounge he shut the door and locked it again. He gestured for me to take a seat. "We need to talk Jack." He sighed and ran a hand over his face. He looked stress. 

"No shit." I laughed. 

He chuckled and sat across from me. "I'm an idiot." "I'm sorry." We both said at the same time. We mirrored each other's confused expressions. 

"Wait, why are you sorry?" He asked. 

"I know you're an idiot, but why are you telling me this?" I asked. 

He hit my in the arm and I shook my head with a smile on my face. It's weird how the person who hurts you the most can still make you happier than someone whose never hurt you before. 

"I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore because I pushed you into something you didn't want to do. I understand that I'm the one who was so stupid and selfish when we were younger and I caused you pain. I'm so fucking sorry, Jack." Alex said. 

"It's okay..?" I said, still confused. He hugged me and then walked out of the room. Well, that was unexpected. 

I walked out of the back lounge and sat in my bunk, still thinking about what Alex said. How did he push me to do anything? How was he being stupid or selfish? That had nothing to do with his sympathy game...Does it? 

[Alex's pov]

I sat in the front lounge and looked at my feet. Talking to him about it made me feel a little better, now that I've came to terms with my own stupidity. But I couldn't help but still feel confused. He said he was sorry but never explained that, and he never really told me where we stand now. Are we friends? Are we enemies? Does he still like me? What even are we? 

I groaned and leaned my head against the wall next to me. Zack glanced at me and then glanced at the shut door to the bunk room. 

"Alex, I swear to god if you're messing with him I will beat your ass. He's my best friend. Got it?" Zack said in a hush tone. 

"What do you mean, Zack?" I whispered back. 

"He already feels bad about doing the self-harm, he doesn't need you only giving him sympathy and pretending feelings okay?" He answered and then went back to playing some video game. 

I sat up straight a little. So that's what he meant. I let what Zack said sink in for a bit while I fell asleep on the couch. 

*The Next Day/ End of tour*

[Jack's pov]

I woke up and checked the time on my phone. It was 8:00Am and we were already back in Baltimore. I got up and changed into some clean clothes and did my hair. Trust me, no one wants to see Jack Barakat with a bad hair day. 

I realized I was the only one awake so I quietly cleaned off my bunk and put all my stuff back in my suit case. I left a note for everyone, telling them I already headed out. I grabbed my stuff and left the bus. I called a taxi and shoved my suit case in the trunk. I sat in the back seat and smiled. Tour was fun, but I rather be in Baltimore. The place brought back so many memories. I was already thinking about what I was going to do first. 

We arrived at my house and I ran inside. I threw my suitcase on my bed and went down stairs. I needed time to think. And with everyone being back from tour, I'll probably never get time alone, even though we just got back. So I grabbed my car keys and I already knew the perfect place to think. 

I drove down the road, since I moved from my mom's house I can't walk to my favorite spot anymore. I parked my car in the grass and walked the rest of the way to this tall tree. I looked up and smiled. I rebulit the tree house nearly 2 years ago. Because of the non-stop touring and writing music I rarely ever get the chance to come up here. I only really came up here when I wanted to get drunk by myself or with Alex or someone. It was mainly just Alex and I. 

I climbed up the ladder and sat in the bean bag chair in the corner. I turned the radio on and played Blink-182. I closed my eyes and started humming to the song that was playing. It really was peaceful up here. My mellow and happy mood faded when I though of Alex. We used to have so many fun times up here. After I burned down the tree house Alex and I still used to come by the tree a lot. It was where we talked about things. We were so close. It was before he knew about the marks that trailed over my body. If I could take those days back that I felt low enough to do that, I would. It would mean that I would still have Alex. But then again, if he does only like me because he's sorry for me, that would mean I wouldn't have Alex. He would have been the same old asshole I met in the hallway of school in 8th grade. 

I thought I was going to start crying, I lost one of my best friends because I wasn't good enough. It was probably my fault, I pushed him away just like I did to my father. May even said that! 

"Hey stranger." Someone whispered. I opened my eyes to notice I already was slowly crying. It was Alex, he was standing in the door way of the tree house. 

"I have an answer for you." He said softly again. I furrowed my eyebrows at him, I didn't want my voice cracking if I talked. 

He took a seat next to me and slung his arm around my shoulders. "Just like the good 'ole day's huh?" He sighed. 

"Are you gonna tell me what this is about?" I asked, ignoring the raspy sound of my voice. 

"I know who you are, Jack." He whispered. 

"What are you--?" 

"You're the kid who wasn't afraid to stand up to that prick in middle school. You're the kid who burned down his own safe haven. You're the kid who was so shy at first. You're the kid who made mistakes. You're the kid who I took an interest in. You're the kid I fell in love with. You're the only person I wanna know," he paused. 

"You're all I know, Jack." He whispered. I wrapped my arms around his neck. 

"I love you, Lex." I said. 

"I love you too, Jacky." He said back. 

And that's when I realized, I didn't care what he did or how he hurt me. Because him hurting me is probably the best hurt I could ever feel. 

I love Alex Gaskarth, and all of his mistakes. 

THE END.

A/N- I'll miss writing this story for you guys. I seriously wanted to cry while writing this last chapter aww. Thank you all for reading this. I hope the end fulfilled your expectations.