Mr Bitter meets Ms Proper

PANIRA MOMENT/EPILOGUE

LOVE is not a game, it's a war.

Hindi madali ang sumugal para sa taong mahal mo. LOVE is not easy. Marami kang kailangang pagdaanan. LOVE is not all about being happy but experiencing all kinds of emotions in just one moment.

Sometimes, LOVE is PRETENDING. Pretending to be the person you don't want to be, pretending to be happy even though you are breaking deep inside, pretending not to care when it hurts so bad, pretending it is okay when you feel like everything is a mess.

Pero naniniwala naman ako na LOVE is a struggle. LOVE is paid by hardwork and determination. Kasi naniniwala rin ako na sa isang relationship, EFFORT is needed.

Now, it's been 3 years simula nang naging kami ni Nathan, ang dakilang bitter sa buhay ko.

I am currently looking at him right now. He is sleeping sweet and sound. Ang lalaking nagpasaya, nagpaiyak, nagpagalit, nagpatampo, nagpahirap at ang nagmahal sa akin. Who would ever thought na ang lalaking bitter at walang plano sa buhay noon ang makakatuluyan ko. Who would have thought na dahil sa stupid contract of being in a pretend relationship ay mauuwi sa totohanan. Who would have imagined na sa kabila ng mga lintek na plot twists sa buhay naming dalawa, kami pa rin hanggang sa huli?

22 years old na ako, ang bata ko pa pero I am sure na si Nathan na talaga. We've been married for 3 years and its been good. Pero syempre, no kids muna, work and spending quality time together muna ang focus. At so far, wala namang mga punyetang mga babae ang umaaligid sa Nathaniel ko.

Guess what, si Javier and Scarlet ang nagkadevelopan, at hindi ko nga na process kung bakit ngayon, si Kevin na at Denice. Pero ganyan talaga ang LOVE, hindi mo alam kung kailan darating. Hindi mo masasabi kung kailan ito kakatok sa pintuan mo. Minsan nga, hindi mo pa alam kung anong dahilan kung bakit ka nahulog sa taong hindi mo inakalang mamahalin mo.

Kaya nga minsan napapaisip ako kung rollercoaster ride pa ba ito kasi minsan ang feeling ko, para akong naka sky diving, yung may saya at kaba kang nararamdaman na kapag sakaling hindi gumana ang parachute, may sasalo ba? Mabubuhay pa kaya ako? Pero nandiyan naman kasi si Nathan, and I know he would be more than willing to catch me when I fall, and I actually did and he really did catch me. And the happiness na nararamdaman mo when you see the sky, when you feel like you are touching it, yun bang feel na feel mo na you are like a bird, soaring high. Alam niyo yung ganung feeling? Basta, hindi ko ma explain.

LOVE? Ang hirap iexplain.

I LOVE YOU? Ang dali sabihin pero ang hirap gawin at panindigan.

FOREVER? Nah, siguro mas better yung FOR LIFE, o di kaya FOR A LIFETIME.

HAPPY? Siguro mas okay kung HAPPY, SAD, EXCITED, BORED, PROBLEMATIC but still, kayo pa rin until the end.

"Oh bi, bakit gising ka na. Di ba mamaya ka pa pupunta sa company niyo? Ikaw naman, hindi ka pa ba nasanay sa kagwapohan kong toh at kahit after 3 years, tinititigan mo pa rin ako?"

"Alam mo LECHE KA! HINDI MO BA ALAM NA NAGMOMOMENT AKO, I WAS REFLECTING! TAPOS GIGISING KA LANG AND RUIN IT!"

"Eto naman, sige tulog na ako ulit. Nanaginip kasi ako tungkol sayo. Itutuloy ko muna."

"Ayyyy ewan ko sayo Nathan. Is your dream better than reality?"

"Hindi! Pero Oo, kasi sa dream ko pumayag ka nang gumawa ng babyyAARAAAAAAYYYYYY!"

"Tigilan mo ako ahhhh!"

"HAHAHAHA di na mabiro eh. Pero its okay Jura. Kung hindi ka pa ready, I respect it naman. Isa pa, bata pa tayo for something like that. One thing, I love the way you respect yourself. Yang pagiging conservative mo. Kaya, okay na."

"Well kung ganun, thank you."

"Anything for you. I love you Bi."

"I love you too."

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NATHANIEL'S POV

Dalawa lang masasabi ko, I AM HAPPY AND CONTENTED sa buhay ko ngayon.

Correction, tatlo lang pala ang masasabi ko, I AM HAPPY AND CONTENTED AND I LOVE JURA COURTNEY FERRIS!

Ito pang apat, I'LL LOVE HER UNTIL THE DAY I DIE!

Well, you know me. Hindi ako madaldal na tao. Kaya to sum up everything, masaya lang talaga ako. I've never been happy sa tanang buhay ko. Thankful ako na Jura came into my life.

Thankful ako na dumaan ako sa backgate, thankful ako na yung room ni Jura yung pinasok namin ng babae ko, thankful ako na pumasok siya at nahuli kami, thankful ako at ginalit niya ako, thankful ako at napasok kami sa pretend relationship. Basta, thankful ako sa lahat ng nangyari.

Piece of advice, don't complicate things. If you feel that the person you see on the streets, or the person sitting beside you is the one, kumilos ka na. Huwag mong hintayin na magkandaleche leche pa lahat.

Pero real talk talaga, I love Jura. She will only be the girl I would love this way. She is different, and her being different makes me like her more.

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"NATHANIEL! GUMISING KA NA, YOUR DAD IS WAITING FOR YOU."

Nagising ako bigla ng dahil sa boses ng Mom ko, and then I realized.

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what a WONDERFUL DREAM.

Everything was a fucking dream. Akala ko totoo na yun.

I hope that someday, I'd find my Ms. Proper.

I hope one day someone would see me as the Mr Bitter turned out to be Better kind of guy.

THE END!

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