Forbidden

Chapter forty-six

After finishing the dishes I dry them and put them in place, I've never noticed before how the kitchen looks very family oriented, the whole house too, like once a big family lived here. Now I don't know if I'm allowed to presume my searching of that Advil or not.

Harry had left, Zayn and Louis were here still as I'm struggling to walk.

Whether it is smart to do what I'm about to do wasn't clear but without thinking much I quietly with a broken voice say, "Louis do you know where the Advils are?" then I bite my lip waiting for him to snap.

When it doesn't come I move my head to face him.

Zayn is glaring at Louis who is looking at me with a friendly stare before he nods.

"Yeah, it's on the cupboard right above your head."

"Thanks." I sigh relieved and reach up, quickly taking it. Why didn't I just rummage through all of them on my own?

I throw the pill in and gulp water, letting a satisfied sigh at the cool refreshing. My throat was still on the healing process.

When I hear footsteps I jump slightly then turn around abruptly, Louis has walked to me.

Oh, no. Now he will hurt me too.

He saw my frightened stare before reaching my arm with his hand giving it an assuring pat, displaying that I have nothing to fear about while Zayn is still in here subtly eyeing us.

"You're very pale." Louis comments softly.

Shrugging I retort, "I'm always pale."

"No. I mean yeah, but it's different. You're crying for fucks sake and you still look pale." he keeps watching me until I get uncomfortable." That's not normal."

"Louis I just needed that Advil and now I want to stay alone." I insisted gently, pointing out the obvious.

"Without eating anything?" he taunts."I can make you some pancakes and you can eat them with whipped cream. I think there's even some cherries in the fridge." he declared before pushing me to the side.

"I.." I mumble but he's already pulling things out from the cupboards preparing them, my eyes divert to Zayn's, meeting his stare before he immediately looks away."I can make tea if you want." I tell Louis though I keep peering discreetly to Zayn, Louis hummed as he's pouring ingredients in a deep bowl then proceeds on mixing them with a fork.

As I'm making tea, Zayn has annoyingly not left, though I'd like to know why he's not mad that Louis is helping me by making me some breakfast.

"You can sit." Louis said distracted with the pancakes after he saw me finish the tea. I nod and sit on a high stool which happened to be the exact one Louis was sitting so Zayn stands up and sits a bit further, now another stool is between me and Zayn. How childish of him.. but it bothered me, I blink so my eyes don't leak again."You feel better?" Louis asked kindly twisting his head to me. I have a feeling he's purposely trying to irk Zayn and I'm grateful.

"Yeah." I reply quietly. Zayn suddenly slammed the cup he was drinking from and left.

Louis and I don't address it.

Soon we begin to eat and I feel so much better.

"Hey, we can call Alice too for breakfast." I want to see her, maybe get my mind away from feeling so senseless and alone.

"No she's.. Uhm, Liam and her have some problems which they're trying to sort out."

"He's not hurting her right?" I blurt out."Louis." I press when he doesn't respond."No." I breathlessly said, hurrying to go to her.