Once a cheater, always a cheater

34. Told someone

Emma's POV:

I look up to... him? Wait!

"Shawn? W-what are you doing here? W-why were you following me?" I ignore his hand and stand up myself.

"Following you? I was going home, look, right there" he points towards a house, I feel my cheeks burn. That's kinda embarrassing. "But, what are you doing here? I thought you where sick"

"I was going for a walk... wait, what do you mean 'I'm sick'? I'm not sick"

"O well... you weren't at school, and Olivia told us you were sick, but why are you going for a walk this late? And alone?" He gives me this creepy vibe, why is he giving me this creepy vibe, he's a friend!

"Why would Olivia tell that I'm sick!? I haven't talked to her since... since" I look at my shoes. "I should probably go back home"

"Uh, yeah, do you want me to walk with you? So you nothing will happen to you" I look up to him again, his eyes stand worried.

"Uh... s-sure" we turn around and we start to walk.

First there is this awkward silence between us, i wanna say something but don't know what. I never really had the best bond with Shawn, there was always someone else; Olivia, Jack, Adrian. Not just us two. So we never really had a personal conversation.

"Why weren't you at school? Cuz if you aren't sick..." he tries to start a conversation, but I don't really know why I wasn't at school. I had other things? What other things? When did school start? What day is it? I don't know, I'm not following anything really.

"I- I don't know really..."
"I know from you and Adrian... well I don't know all of it and I don't know every detail" he randomly interrupts me.

I become completely silence... what exactly does he know? From who did he hear it... Adrian told everyone that we broke up, but what else did he tell?

"Emma? A-are you okay?" I realise I stopped walking.
"Y-yes, I'm okay... what exactly do you know?"

"I know that you guys broke up, I don't know the exact reason, Adrian wanted to tell me but I didn't wanna know... he lies too much... I know that you got with someone else and that you had some... thing  with your parents... that's all" he looks at me, I look away from him.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have begun about that" he apologises and it goes back to silence. I don't know what to say, should I tell him everything? He didn't wanted to hear it from Adrian, why would he wanna hear it from me?

"I-it aright. We can talk about it, it's not a taboo" we walk across the street towards some alley.

"What exactly happened?" He slowly asks.

"I-it's a very long story, but in short... we got in a fight... you were there, in the club... and then we made up but I needed some space... and then he cheated..." I stop taking for a few seconds, letting him take in everything

"I broke up with him, he accused me of cheating, because I lived at some friends place... my parents... my parents had kicked me out... than... me and that friend became something... Adrian told my parents I cheated on him, even tho I didn't, and my parents called me that I needed to come home... I walked straight in their trap" Shawn is quiet, way too quiet but I continue.

"I... my... how am I gonna say this?" I feel tears prick in my eyes, I haven't told anyone this. Harry knows some of it, but that was only because he was there, my brothers know it because they heard everything, and my parents did everything.

"Take your time" Shawn insures me.

"Uh, yeah, well..." I feel a tear run down my cheek "my- my father... he... he hurt me... physically... and maybe also mentally" I try to sound as normal as possible, why would I even try to sound normal? It's not normal!

"Wait what!" He almost shouts "he abused you!?"

"Shhh, not the whole world needs to know!"

"S-sorry, but... he abused you!" He says it again but this time in more like a whisper scream.

"I don't know, I wouldn't say it like that.." why am I even trying to defend that man?

"What did he do to you?" I didn't expect that question, I don't know what I expected, but certainly not that.

"He... he screamed at me, pulled my wrist, pulled me with my hair upstairs..." I begin, I look at the ground as I feel I face turning red

"There's more?!" I give Shawn a quick look and she that he looks at me in shock.

"H-he locked me in my room... t-that's it, I think"

"That's it? Like it's not enough? Emma! He fucking abused you!" He raises his voice a bit and I step a small step away from him. He immediately notices "sorry. Emma, I'm sorry. I shouldn't raise my voice. You can't do anything about it!"

"I-it's okay." I search for my phone but can't find it in my pockets, I probably left it at home "uh... do you maybe have the time?"

"Yeah, of course" he immediately grabs his phone and checks the time, I stand there, awkward. "It's 2 AM, I think you wanna go back to your home?"

"Uh, yeah, that would be nice"

We start walking again, not saying much, but it doesn't matter. I've told him, I've told someone, it feels good.
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"Thanks for... bringing me home" I look over my shoulder and give Shawn a soft smile as I unlock the front door.

"Of course, we should do it again... I mean; hang out, you know" he gives me a smile back

"Yeah, that would be... cool... we'll text" I go inside and turn around so I see him.

"Yeah, we'll text. Okay, see ya soon. Bye" he gives a quick wave and walks away, I quickly close the door.

My phone!

I throw off my shoes and jacket and run upstairs.
Where can that thing be?
I walk inside Harry's room. There it is, laying on the bed. I jump on the bed grabbing my phone and unlocking it.

O... fuck, Harry has called me a thousand times... whoops.
It's his fault as well. He could've checked in on me earlier. I call him back.

Pick up, pick up, pick up.

Ring... another ring....
"EMMA!" YES!!!!
"HARRY!"

"I was so worried! Why didn't you pick up your phone?" He begins

"Me? You where worried about me? I was the one being worried! You didn't check in for HOURS! I almost thought you where dead!" I firer back, even tho I'm mad at him for not answering my texts or calls, I can't stop smiling hearing his voice.

"I'm so sorry, love... I just had a really long day and my phone died and-"

"It's okay, you're calling now, that's all that matters" I cut him off. "How is it with Kate and your dad?"

"Well, I don't really know it anymore... my dad woke up from his coma..."

"That's good, right?"

"Yeah, yeah that's good! I don't know why I'm upset! But how is it there?" I know that he isn't telling me everything, I can hear it, but I know he isn't telling me it for a reason.

"It's alright, I just came back from a walk-"

"This late?" I hear the worry in his voice

"Yeah, but don't worry, I bumped into Shawn. He walked me back home... and... I told him"

"You told him what, love?"

"Everything... it felt good to tell someone..."

"That... that's great! I'm proud of you for telling someone! That must feel great!" I let out a breath I didn't knew I was holding, I'm glad he not mad at me or something for telling Shawn instead of him.

"Yeah, yeah it does!" I start smiling again "anyway... how's the hotel?"