Auggie
I take a deep breath and walk through the door. If I know River, she's made a list of things she'd want to talk about, but I know she would not have planned to talk about the news Melissa just dropped. I have no clue how she's going to react. I just hope she gives me a chance to explain. I know this has thrown her list out the window. When I thought about our conversation tonight, I had assumed we'd discuss whatever she wanted to and then I would tell her about the news Melissa beat me too, but I'm sure that topic has shot up on the list of things she will want to discuss. I tried to text River earlier to let her know I was on my way. I wish she had texted me back earlier to let me know Melissa was here. She should have heard it from me. I thought it was strange when Melissa took off earlier leaving the guys and myself to deliver her shit to her parents. She must have overheard that I was coming over here to talk to River. God I've been a fucking idiot. I wish I had seen through her earlier.
As I close the door, I see her walk into the room and what I see breaks my heart. She's trying to be strong, but she's silently crying. I've hurt her again. I know I should have told her as soon as it happened, but I was in denial. At the time I couldn't believe it had happened. I was devastated and disgusted that I could have let something like that happen. I couldn't even admit to myself that it had happened. I knew I was being coward when I didn't tell her, but I wanted her first time to be with me. I know it was selfish to take her virginity, letting her believe that we lost it to each other, but I just couldn't bear her losing it to anyone else. I know that makes me an asshole. I hope she can forgive me for this.
I walk further into the room, and I want to comfort her, but I don't think she wants that person to be right now... She's not saying anything, so I sit down in her recliner and start, "I just want to start by saying I'm sorry. I know it doesn't mean anything now, but I came here planning to tell you tonight."
I stand back up when I see her rushing up to me and screams, "You planned on telling me now! What about before I gave my virginity to you! What about when I first moved here? I can't believe you. All you do is hurt me Auggie! Why do I fucking continue to let you hurt me. I love you, but I fucking hate you!" She falls to her knees, and I try to go to her, but she pushes me off. I've done this. I thought I was protecting her feelings, but I was really protecting myself.
"Why can't I love anyone else! You don't fucking deserve me!" She's right, I don't deserve her. I have never deserved her. I've took her for granted and I'm afraid that I may have finally crossed the point of no return. I don't know what to say other than, "You're right." She's still crying. I'm not sure if she's even listening. "I was a coward and selfish River. I was so scared of losing you and I didn't want you to lose something so special to anyone else."
"Don't you think I should have been given that option? It was special to me. I waited for you! For you Auggie!" She gets up and starts pushing my chest, "And you" push, "gave" push "yours" push "to" push "fucking" push "Melissa!" push "I hate you!" I knew it would go this way. I'm not sure if she will ever forgive me for this. I rub my hands down my face and realize I'm crying too. I've sure made a mess of things.
"I am truly sorry River. I've never wanted to hurt you. Ask me anything you want. I promise this is the last thing I've kept from you. You know everything else."
"Like I can believe you. You've both lied or omitted the truth to me; I don't know what I should believe. You said you only slept with her twice, but I can't even believe that. All this time, you've made me look stupid Infront of her." She sneers, her tears drying up.
"I know. I know there is nothing I can say to fix this. Still, you can ask me anything. I want to be able to explain. I promise I didn't ever plan on touching Melissa. I don't even know how it even happened. One minute I was sleeping and the next thing I know I wake up and was having sex." She cocks her head seemingly thinking about something.
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Another Love Another time
العاطفيةRiver and Auggie have been best friends since birth. Even though they live hours apart they find time everyday for their friendship. As they grow up they both know they love each other, but River is afraid to commit wanting to make sure if Auggie ch...