Yosuke's POV:
Everywhere I go, it smells like him. It's like he's everywhere and nowhere all at once.
In Yu's room, especially.
Ha... It smells more like Shin than it does Yu, to be fair. I bet he's been in this room more often than his own.
I sit on the edge of his futon with the towel hanging loosely around my waist. My body drips with water, but my legs ache too much to move.
He was right. A hot shower was what I needed most.
I guess I feel a little better. Then again, I didn't have Shin banging on the door, telling me to hurry up.
I don't even take that long!
The scent chokes me as I try to wipe my stinging eyes.
I notice my cell buzzing on Yu's desk.
Partner<33
Partner<33: Are you almost
finished?
Partner<33: Dinner's ready.
Geez. He's such a mom.
I kinda hate the way he took me in.
I had no excuse to be a dick.
He's stuck by me. And... he's hurting as well. All that shit I said to him... fuck, I really hope it didn't get to him too much.
He shoulda just left me.
Maybe then I'd feel less guilty about invading his home after being the biggest asshole in history.
Everything just... pisses me off. I mean, how can he be so calm and happy with Kanji after what happened to Shin?
I should be mad that he didn't come to see me, but he tried. Maybe I'm mad he didn't try hard enough?
How has he not lost his shit with everyone yet? Last year, I'd never have expected it from him, but, this year, now, especially, I'm suprised.
I wish he would snap at me. To just put me into place. 'Cause I just say shit that's hardly true. Shit that makes me feel better.
Maybe he thinks Shin wouldn't have wanted him to be mad. Who is he kidding? Shin would love to see him get revenge.
Or, he should have.
The old Shin would have been all in for revenge. But, since Yu... I guess he just toned it down. It was surprising, at first. But then I knew that if anybody could get somebody to change, it'd be Yu.
...Is that what he's thinking?
That he can change my mind about this? About... everything between us?
No.
I've made my decision. I can't be around him. I can't just pretend that Shin didn't love him.
I know they broke up... but Shin was never supportive of him dating other people. He was... a jealous asshole. Like me, I guess.
Even if he was mine first, Yu and I were never together. Not before Shin; and certainly not after.
I really don't want to ruin everything, though. I love him... But I love Shin, too.
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With You (Souyo)
Fanfiction(Prolly still has a shitton of typos, feel free to point them out) Yosuke has never really been great at expressing how he feels. Certainly not to his partner, at least. He'd been... thinking about Yu differently since he left. And now that he's com...
