They say each year passes and you'd say I wish it never passed.
Well for me I wouldn't say that, because like I always say, I learned a lot, I grew a lot
But I saw my weakest.
October, first, 2022
It all started there and yet it never ended
It was a loop
Day after day
Weeks became endless hours
And sometimes hours became speeded days
I didn't know what to held
How to fix every broken heart
I didn't know how to heal my scars
But what hurts the most
I didn't know where and to whom to cry.
So
I decided to let go
Let go of my friends
My emotions
My self
To focus on my family
Because they needed me
But no matter how hard I used to try nothing became better
Nothing was easier
It led to a point where I didn't realize my pain
I didn't know what was hurting me
And I want to say
"The worst thing in a disease is not knowing the cure for it,
But the worse is not knowing how to identify the disease so you could heal it."
So I knew something was wrong
And I told me
" if I need to help them, I have to help me first."
I learned to figure out what was making my heart feel heavy
And how?
I started talking to myself to god as well
And I used to talk about my day from top to the end
Sometimes it wasn't just about my day, it was about a painful past as well
And what made me cry
I knew it hurt the most
And what didn't
I knew it wasn't very important.
And this method helped me
To know what were the important events in my life
And what my time should be wasted at.
Nothing became easier
But I became stronger
I knew what was the disease
And I found the cure
What was left
Me protecting myself, so I could not get sick again.
Your mental health is something very important
Don't underestimate it, and most importantly
Don't run away from your problems in life
Because no matter how far you leave, you'll find the same problems
And you can either fix it
Or you could just ignore it till it paints a beautiful hole inside of your brain then you become a professional overthinker... and you're welcome.
( I'm just joking, but seriously be a man a face your problems dude :). )
And remember nothing lasts forever
And after every dark night there's a sun lighting up the skies.
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NezařaditelnéDear Sam In these papers that are filled with words and stories who made you today You will find letters to read Actions to learn And that love you need And If I could hug yesterday I'd have done that by the passion I gave Through writing this...
