Here I am, I'm just me
and me means nothing to you
but nor does it to me.
There is no purpose to my existence,
I can see no good in myself,
I have no good fucking qualities.
Why do some people say I'm amazing.
that I'm really fucking cool.
It's not fucking true!
Everyone has to stope lying to me
and saying that you all care
when you don't even know me
and you can't even show it.
I'm all alone in this cruel world
and therer is no one here to help me.
I'll keep fucking up my whole life
and I'll never succeed in anything.
I'll be content after everything
because then I'll be dead
and that's my dream now
because I can't dream any longer
about dreams I could never fulfill.
I had a dream once,
an amazing, impossible dream
because I realize now
that I could never achieve it.
But when I dream
it's the only time that I'm happy
because you can dream anything
and what I dream is you by my side
and me fulfilling all of my fantasies.
I've made my own world in my head
and I only live by it's rules
and I don't care what anyone else thinks
becuase me in my own world
is a whole lot better than me in this world
but I always have to be reminded
that the world I dream of is not real
and that I'm actually a fuck up
and because of that you can never love me
and I know that you never have.
But it's okay, I understand you can't
because I am nothing, a dumb fuck.
I can't do anything right
and everything I do wrong has consequences
and all of these consequences added up
and now...now I'm gone.
I don't give a fuck about anything
because things aren't worth caring about
and I'm definitely not worth caring about
because who cares about a nobody?
Nobody, that's who.
