What do I do when I have no clue?
What do I do when I don't know what to do?
My mind is completely blank
and i don't know if I can do this anymore
live, I mean.
Shit I can't take this,
I don't even know what I'm doing,
what is my goal in life?
I'm going to wither and die away
just like I was destined to do
and no one will help me along the way,
why would they waste their time?
I lost her, that's my biggest mistake
and all I want is to have her back
because she made me so fucking happy.
I don't need anything else but her.
I don't need drugs or cigarettes,
I don't need help and I don't need the world.
All I ever needed was her.
I know my life goal,
everything that I want.
I want her, I wante her to love me
and I'll do anything to make that happen.
I'll rip a hole in the world,
I'll kill for her in a second,
I'll give up every fucking thing I know
just to know I still have her.
But fuck, I can't take action,
I don't even know if she'll ever like me again
but I'll always fucking love her.
Every time I fucking see her
all I think about is all the good times we had
but also what I did wrong
and what I could've done instead
to make everything okay.
But now it's too late and it's all fucking over
and all I can do is stare
out of the corner of my eye
and look at how beautiful she is
and I hope she doesn;t find out how I feel
because she doesn't give a fuck
that I love her with all my heart,
all she cares about is what he thinks.
What the fuck is he doing?
He told me he doesn't like her much
and I told him not to hurt her more
but he still prolongs the relationship,
why is he doing that to my love?
I might have to intervene
if he keeps doing this to her.
Now let's let my mind rest
until the next time I have to think again
even though it's fucking hard
reliving these memories,
playing them back...over and over.
