Another night
the same pattern of thoughts
running through my mind.
Why can't I control
what I think about?
It's as if my mind
has a mind of it's own.
Now it's about medicine
the medicine that I take regularly.
Its really not the best
but it'll have to do.
I wish I could actually be happy
and not need medicine for it
but that's not how the world works.
The world is not a happy place
and there are a lot of users
using this medicine.
Us users, we can stop anytime
but we choose not to
because of the way it makes us feel,
because it's the only thing that helps.
I wish I had something else,
something special in my life
so that it can make me happy,
not only my medicine.
It's pointless to try to find
something special in this world
because anytime something special does come along
it is always gone before it can bring any real joy
and then your fucked
because you have attached yourself
to this special something
and even though it's already gone
you still long for it, still need it
you think your going to die without it.
But that's just the world fucking with you
so let's fuck it back
and give it what it deserves.
Destroy it, burn it, break all the rules
let's do whatever the fuck we want
and not care about if it's not allowed
because we have nothing more to lose.
