Reading over these notes you gave me
once before, they brought me joy
but now all that they bring
is sadness and a tear to my eye.
You said that you were so happy
that we were together again
and that you're always happy
whenever you're with me.
How stupid of me to believe that
I obviously bring you no more happiness
and all that's left now is emptiness
and I can't help but feel sadness
because we will never be together again.
These notes made me laugh
remembering all the good times we had
and the amazing things you said about me
but that smile and laugh slowly changed,
replaced by a frown and silence
and me gripping the paper
ready to rip these notes into a million pieces
but I stopped myself from doing that,
I will get my satisfaction yet.
The day that you realize that you were wrong
when you left me all alone
with my heart crying blood in my hands
and at my feet a rather large puddle
mostly blood but also tears.
You will remember and then you will cry,
you'll want me back and I'll say no
with no emotion and a blank face
except that that won't fucking happen
and my feelings for you are still overwhelming
but I can't even love right now
because my heart is lost and cannot be found
so I'll walk alone for a while
as long as it'll take to wait for you
which is forever because you'll never like me
and your feelings for me will never change
even though you made the fucking mistake,
the mistake of letting me go.
It took a while to realize
that I mean something to myself
and that I mean nothing to you
but in the end it's all your loss
because all I did was love and care
with all my fucking heart
and you still lef tme all alone.
After all this you say you care?
I laugh at that because you lie
and you've lief way tooo fucking much to me.
Now I'm enraged and desperately praying for death
but still somehow holding onto dear life
because it's all I have left
but even life has no meaning
and I walk aimlessly around my soul
trying to find my way again
but it's always too far and when I try to reach for it,
it passes through my outstretched arms
and then reality hits me again
and I'm standing above a trash can
holding all your stupid, fucking notes
and then I ignite the flame and watch them burn.
Soon they will be nothing but ashes.
