TWIN FLAMES (A MayWard Story) ✔

Chapter Four: Leap of Faith

"Kalma May, kalma kalma kalma hooo! Inhake exhale inhale exhale. Hoo!"

My whole body is shaking. I feel like I could actually pass out any moment now.

Could it really be? Is that even possible?

I continued to pace back and forth in this small space. My mind still can't fully digest the idea of what I've just thought. My knees feel so jelly-like. Seems like they could buckle at any moment now.

I opened one door of toilet cubicle and sit at the bowl's lid. So ok the thing is, actually, I think I am going crazy right now. In one part of my mind I admit that I felt so ridiculously happy upon realizing that there is a possibility that I could save Edward from dying so damn early in this world. But even more so, the fear that is starting to creep within me is way much stronger. The reason? It is because I am starting to hope now. I am starting hope that there could be a happy ending for the both of us in this world. I am starting to imagine a life with him, a future together with him and that is I think, terrifying.

Yes terrifying. Why? What if admist of all the happiness fate suddenly decides to pull me from all of it and bring me back to my own reality. I do not even belong in this world in the first place. I am just literally a nuissance here, an extra. Everything-my hope, my dreams, my life in this place might disappear in just a snap any time. And I don't think I can lose Edward like that for the second time around. If that happened I will absolutely lose it this time for sure. That's why I've decided.

I'll go back to the present, to my own world. I'll leave this place once and for all before anything else gets worse. I should leave when I still could.

I guess seeing Edward again is enough. Our encounter is indeed a blessing itself. Maybe that is all I am allowed to have. I could tell him a thing or two, just like 'I love you' but I shouldn't meddle with this world's future any longer. I might cause more damage than good if so.

Also there's another thing that I should take into consideration. Although I am not sure about her whereabouts as of the moment, in this world her existence is absolutely a fact. My counterpart-the Maymay of this world is in there, probably lurking somewhere. I am very positive of that. Sure I got stuck in here but what about her? Where the heck did she go? That I wonder.

Wait wait, could it be that we actually switched places? Is she in my world right now?

Well that could be possible too. Though I have no idea what really happened to me or should I say what happened to my body, after that dreadful car accident.
Did I die or not? I am not sure.

"Oh God please please let me be alive. I need to be alive!"

Well I wouldn't actually mind dying that much but I am worried about my other self's soul if in case we actually did switch places after all. If my body is indeed dead now, she will no longer have a permanent case to stay, she will just be wondering aimlessly in my world. Just like a real ghost.

Wondering aimlessly? Just like a real ghost? Hah! Normally I would have laugh at those series of thoughts but as of the moment I am absolutely not in the position to do so.

I sighed frustratingly. I need to find a way back as soon as possible and find out what really happened. But where do I even start?

"Argh this is so frustrating!" I brushed my face harshly with my palms. I wish someone could actually tell me.

"Lord pahinging clue please. Kahit isa lang po. Starting point lang." I mumbled.

I almost fell down on my seat when all of a sudden I heared someone knocked loudly on the door.