(Drowning Series - Book One)
Alexandra Ariana Marino; The first born girl in three generations, known as the girl who always smiles and lights up her family's life.
Suddenly tragedy takes hold of her and she loses both of her parents right in fron...
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Alexandra Ariana Marino
Monday November 6, 2023
We hate ourselves for the ideology society throws at us.
We blame society for everything that goes wrong in out lives, but in the end... We are this society that we claim to hate with every fiber of our beings.
Isn't is sad? When you're a kid your biggest worry is hoping you don't scrape your knees when climbing out of your favorite tree but now? It's almost like you crave the blood you once tried so hard to avoid.
When the night finally turns dark, the stars inevitably lose their spark, and you sit there staring at the empty space and realize something that only becomes more and more soul crushing the more you dig into it.
Everyone is doing just fine with out you, they will continue to do just fine without you.
I may physically be in front of everyone but nobody has really noticed, the world is still turning and it feels like everyone is moving on without me, leaving me alone with the dimly lit stars that coat the polluted skies.
I'm still breathing and shit I suppose but I might as well be a walking corpse, damn, maybe I already am.
I'm still breathing but would it really make it difference in your life if I wasn't?
I worked so hard to make something good for myself but that really never truly be enough, right?
The answer is no.
Is anything ever going to be enough at this point?
Wishing to bleed so you could feel something when there was once a time you wished to be numb, as it turns out feeling something is better than this overwhelming sense of nothing.
Speaking of nothing, I should open my eyes and get on with my day. Pretending to be dead isn't going to solve the fact Dante will be here any second and I'm still in bed dreading my very existence.
A knock at my door startles me, apparently I'm quite popular lately.
I quickly roll out of bed, throw on a probably clean hoodie and mumbled a quick 'come it', secretly hoping the person on the other side wouldn't hear me but spoiler alert... He did.
Although the person that opened the door shocked me just a bit.
Matteo.
"Hello Princess Lexa." I cringe slightly at the nickname which I believe went unnoticed by my brother and if he did notice than he just didn't let it show which I'm semi-happy about. "Why do you look like you just woke up?"
