(Drowning Series - Book One)
Alexandra Ariana Marino; The first born girl in three generations, known as the girl who always smiles and lights up her family's life.
Suddenly tragedy takes hold of her and she loses both of her parents right in fron...
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Alexandra Ariana Marino
Monday October 23, 2023
"The world is dark, selfish, and cruel. If it finds even the slightest ray of sunshine, it destroys it." ~ Mother Gothel
I assume the cruelest thing you can do to a person is pretend that they mean more to you than they actually do. My brothers used to do that at one point or another before they stopped caring enough to play pretend and it fucking hurts.
I have come to realize how much understanding truly is different than knowledge. There are so many people that know you in theory but very few that can actually understand you, or care enough to try to understand you, or rather care enough to learn all the details about the new you, the mature you, the fragile you, the tightrope walking you, the falling you.
I often wonder how long a person can site on the ledge with their legs dangling over the never ending abyss before you accidentally slip, or before someone gets fed up with you and gives you that one last push. Could it be a friend, perhaps a sibling.
It's been four days since the talk in the vacant class with my twin brother, and I haven't spoke to him since nor has he really looked at me, not like that is really uncommon anyway so I don't know why I sound shocked right now.
I actually wouldn't be too shocked if he completely hated me, sure he's never actually said that. As a matter of fact, he said the opposite once but that was a while ago. It will hurt like a bitch if I ever heard the words escape his lips but I wouldn't be surprised.
I know for a fact Giovanni hates me, or perhaps he strongly dislikes me? Same difference, one is just used to spare my feelings.
He's never really been my biggest fan, even before I indirectly caused the death of our parents, he didn't have an issue with Alessio so I doubt my age has anything to do with it. Maybe it's because of the whole 'women don't belong in the mafia' mindset that a lot of mafia men have even though I'm his sister and not even an active member of the mafia, plus I think our mom would come back from the grave and literally kill him if he ever said that out loud.
There's that infuriating saying that goes something like 'time heals all wounds', but quite frankly I think that is all complete and utter bullshit, it's something people often tell you to attempt to make you feel better when the wound is only skin deep, the key word is 'attempt'.
Besides that, Manny has for some fucking reason been trying to hang around Dante and I almost constantly. Okay more like he's trying to talk to me, Dante is just around a lot as long as he doesn't have anything else to do which usually involves his coach.
