New Beginning

Chapter 34 are you ignoring me

Emily Pov

I will be nothing, wait why did I even care about all this. Hey will you please just stop thinking about him already, you are driving me nuts. I said to the voice in my head.

Since a month back, am already done with my training, but I always go to the training ground. But today is different. I stay in my room. I did not have a good night sleep.

I can't believe it, I keep telling my heart to think about something else but it keep bringing me the picture of Jace and what he said keep repeating in my mind. And look at the end result, i was deprived of my sleep, Seriously? Will you just listen to me for fuck sake. I scored my heart once again.

But I guess it isn't going to listen. I have been tossing around till I fell asleep. I sleep soundly untill my phone started raining, what, can't I at least have a good sleep, I said into the phone without look at the caller.

I snapped out of my sleep completely when I heard that Deed chuckle. I also don't have a good night sleep, the voice from the other side said. I ask without thinking, why's that? Shit, why should I care in the first place, I shouldn't have ask that. But I guess it too late because I heard, I keep thinking about you, I keep thinking about how to make you my girlfriend.

You should stop those wishful thinking because it not going to work, I said and without waiting for him to reply, I hangup the call.

My heart start beating wildly again, I don't know I have that infect on him. He want me to be his girlfriend.

Why don't you just say yes, it pretty useless fighting him, are you going to be happy if you see him with someone else, a voice said in my head

I look around the room, am I going mad? I shake my head, yes, I think am going mad. It better you listen to me now before it too late, the voice said once again. I let out a giggles, ok I will be your girlfriend, but I have kids. should I tell him that way or like this. I have kids that why I don't want to be your girlfriend. I laugh really hard. It stupid, seriously stupid.

Ok, you guys should please I don't want to think about anyone, when I said anyone I literally mean, anybody, I don't want to think about anybody, I said to my heart and the voice in my Head.

I went to take my shower and grab some food. I went back inside my room and see some miss calls from Jace. I did not bother calling him back. Some minutes later I received a text message. Are you ignoring me. I look at the message and did not bother replying.

Please pick my call. I received another message... Do you really wonna keep ignoring me. He sent again... I want to distant myself from him, ever since he said he like me, I did not see him as a friend anymore, I started wanting more from him.

This is not really like me. If there isn't any good reason to be near him, I don't want to go near him. My phone keep buzzing, but I ingore it and lay down on my back.

Are you really sure you want to keep ignoring him? Not again, I said to myself. I don't want to have a mental break down. Just think about it, it for your own good, the voice said once again. Thanks so much, have already though it true...