MELODRAMATIC RANT | On thinking too much and Silent Sanctuary songs
"Ang problema man gud nimo, Den, you think too much." The problem with you, Den, is that you think too much.
I am sober now. Well, I was, until Silent Sanctuary's Sa'yo played background on a Koreanovela show late this night. I was already geared up towards not loving her anymore. Funny, since all my previous posts sounded like I was hit by Cupid a thousand times over and over again and here I am saying I'm all over it, I'm all over her. I think I'm not.
You see, I decided to kill this feel. Why? It kills me. All the crap I said about loving someone without expecting something in return did me a lot of pain. Curse you all poets I've known. It wasn't easy. (And I'm looping Silent Sanctuary's Sa'yo while typing this, letting the feels suck me in and transform myself into a cat).
Well, my friend was right. I really think too much. Too much of all things. Too much that I always end up regretting why I always think too much. I end up not doing anything, just sitting there thinking why I think too much. I feel you, Carljoe Javier. This post is a product of thinking too much.
I know that she knows already. Well, that's cool. But that's it. She's too beautiful, too real for my fantasy. Unfair, I know. I'm ending a fight I haven't started yet. Not to confuse but she is worth fighting for. The problem is me. A geek madly in love. A geek too naive about love. A geek staring at a beautiful woman but stays there, steady, silent, wanting to talk but can't.
Curse this song.