Aubrey "Drake" Graham
Things between Ken and I were moving on a steady pace as we tried to at least establish a solid friendship again. AJ seemed to grow more and more as the days passed while Kennedy slowly found her way back into the shop. Her mother was still going to be here for a week or so, although my mother left a few days ago. She insisted that she could stay a little longer, but Kennedy convinced everyone that we were getting the hang of things and could now take care of AJ on our own. It wasn't as hard as I'd originally imagined it to be, but it still wasn't easy.
Of course, AJ lived with Kennedy and I'd go over nearly everyday to help out with whatever she needed. I would sometimes stay with him if she decided to leave the house, but that wasn't something that happened too frequently.
Jason and Kylie were there too, but they often found themselves hanging out somewhere around LA later in the days instead of being stuck in the house because of our parenting conditions. I didn't mind it though, not much at all. I felt that being around Kennedy alone allowed us time to figure out what we wanted to do, even though I felt like we would both be announcing the decision to go our complete separate ways soon.
I wasn't too deep in her business, but I did notice changes in Kennedy's ways. It wasn't on no creep shit, but as someone who takes time in analyzing the people around me, I can notice changes in everything she does. I notice her isolation when her phone rings, but it's only when one person calls. I haven't wondered to ask who it was yet, but a certain part of me feels like it's another man.
I also notice the things that she wears, especially when she goes to check on the shop. I'm not saying that I want her to be depressed or anything about her body after the baby, but her outfits have gotten a little too sexy sexier
Even with all of that, I haven't found myself tripping or even becoming a little bit angry. I've been finding myself and figuring out exactly what I wanted to do, and I've somewhat came up with a conclusion. I'm willing to let Kennedy move on if that's what she wants.
As long as we can come to a co-parenting agreement that works for the both of us, I'll leave us behind with no problem. I met someone who I actually seem to like. She's no Kennedy, but she's a good person.
I knew her for a few years through a few of our mutual friends, but I never looked at her in that way. She recently came around a few months ago and been around since then. It's still nothing too serious, but she's someone I enjoy being around.
She knows about my situation with Kennedy and understands that we have to take things slow, so I appreciate that. Whenever I'm not with AJ, I'm probably with her. We keeping things on the low for now, or until I at least come to a complete understanding with Kennedy.
At first, I was so stuck on being with Kennedy and trying to give AJ the happy family neither of us ever had. I had to realize that we probably weren't going to work it out, and that's okay.
I'm not saying that the love is completely gone, but it's just not pure anymore. It's okay to fall out of love sometimes, it's perfectly fine. When you become aware of how toxic things can become, you only begin to wish for the best. So that means going our separate ways, i'm willing to allow that to happen.
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Just as I was getting ready to leave Kennedy's house for the day, AJ woke up from his nap crying. I sat my jacket back down and headed towards his nursery, but Kennedy had already beat me there. She was dressed up as if she was going out, but she hadn't mentioned it earlier.
Jason and Kylie had left about two hours ago and Kennedy said nothing about leaving the house tonight, so I was a little confused. When she saw me walk into the room, she seem a little confused. I did tell her I was leaving about fifteen minutes ago, but I'd gotten caught up in my phone and the cries of my son also stalled me.
"What are you still here"? Kennedy asked as I watched her pick AJ up from his crib and place him across her chest. His cries quieted down as I began to speak, "I was caught up in my phone for a little minute. I was about to leave out until I heard him crying". She nodded her head, "You can leave if you want now though, I'll put him back to sleep".
"It don't look like it, you dressed up like you're about to go somewhere". She shrugged, "I actually am about to step out for a minute, nothing too major". I nodded my head, "You could've said something earlier, I would've stayed. I don't want your mother feeling like she has to watched him alone, I'll always make time for him". She smacked her lips, "I know that Aubrey, you know my mom doesn't mind".
"Who you going out with anyway, when you meet friends in LA"? She shrugged her shoulders, "I know a few people from the shop, and one of them invited me out tonight. Is that a problem with you"? I shook my head, "Nah, you can do you". After a few minutes, AJ was back in his zone and fast asleep. "You going out with a nigga, ain't you". She looked up at me as she laid AJ back into his crib, placing a blanket over his small body.
"Look Aubrey, I don't ask about your whereabouts and who you be with so don't try and do that to me". I shrugged, "I'm not trying to get into your business, I'm just trying to come to a common understanding. Either we're going to work on us or we're going to be seeing other people, your pick". She stood there for a minute, rocking back and forth. "I think it's best-", I cut her off and began to nod my head. "If we see other people, right? That's it, I'll give you that. Go and find your happiness baby, you at least deserve that".
With that, I walked out of the room and headed downstairs to leave out of the house. I made sure to lock Kennedy's door when I left, but also made sure to leave her heart unlocked. I didn't know where that would leave us, but I hope it at least called for a new start of positivity for the both of us.
After getting into my Rolls Royce, I headed over to see someone who could clear my mind whenever it seemed to get a little too cloudy. Her house wasn't too far, only about a fifteen minute drive, so I got there in no time.
I made sure to text her and let her know that I was outside, and it took little to no time for her to open the door for me. It was kind of late in the night, so she was dressed down in her pink robe but she seemed to be looking beautiful.
I placed a kiss onto her cheek, pulling her into a hug as she placed her head onto my chest. "You smell good as hell", I said as I closed and locked the door behind me". She smiled, thanking me as I followed her to the kitchen. "I cooked if you hungry". I shook my head, "Nah, I actually ate right before I came here".
"You okay, you know you can always talk to me Aub". I nodded my head, "Yeah I know Syd, I'm fine though. Ken and I sort of came to an agreement tonight, so I'm just trying to see how everything is going to play out". She nodded her head, while pouring herself a glass of wine. "So what did y'all decide"?
"Basically just to go our separate ways, see other people. Nothing too deep, you know"? Syd nodded her head, sitting at the desk stool across from me, " Well congrats, you're officially a single man". I laughed as she took a sip of her wine, "Who says the single life is always fun"? She shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know, but we can atleast try to make it". She said while getting up from the stool and standing in between my legs, lord knows.
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Kennedy Onika "Nicki" Maraj
"I mean, am I wrong"? I asked between Kylie and Jason as I cooked dinner for the three of us. My mother had went out shopping with my younger brother while they were only in town for a few more days. "Not exactly, If you feel like you found someone who you actually like then go ahead. If you never taught me anything, you always taught not to hold onto things that need to be let go".
Jason smacked his lips, "Barber boy cute or whatever, but he ain't Aubrey".
"I know he isn't Aubrey, and I'll never try to even make a comparison between the two but he's a good person. I don't need another man with millions because that only means that he'll have this sort of cocky persona about him, simply because he know's that he's wealthy and can have nearly anything he wants. I've been there and done that, and I'm not really interested in doing that again".
"Okay since you wanna be Molly the Maid, finish cooking food", Jason said as he rolled his eyes. I knew that he would take Aubrey's side simply because he was always Team Aubrey for the wrong reasons.
I knew that Jason genuinely cared for my heart but he saw what Aubrey could offer and thought that it would make everything better. Kylie truly genuinely cared for my heart and wished me happiness, no matter who I was with.
I knew that it would probably be hard moving on, but I knew that it was best for Aubrey, AJ, and myself.
Last night, after Aubrey left and I made sure AJ was fully asleep, Clarence picked me up and we went out to see a movie and grab something to eat. It wasn't nothing too deep but I did enjoy his company. He was a breathe of fresh air on my worst nights and I honestly liked him. After we grabbed something to eat, he brought me home and we sat in my driveway and talked for a little while.
We both expressed that we liked eachother but didn't want to rush anything. When we spent time together, I want to actually wanted to learn about each other and not just focus on sex or other unimportant things. It also helped that we'd both just gotten out of bad relationships, since we were both in our healing process.
"So what did yall do? Did barber boy at least put that beard to work since he want to be dropping you off and shit"? I rolled my eyes, "No Jason, we didn't have any type of sexual intercourse. He gone have to work for this, my shit ain't easy like yours bitch". I said as I poured my homemade parmesan sauce over our steaks and shrimp.
Jason rolled his eyes, "Bitch don't you ever try to play me like that. Niggas be begging for a taste and I be like so sorry, this ain't for everybody".
I ignored him as I placed everyone's plates in front of them and proceeded to pour each of us a glass of wine. "To new beginnings, new love, and new happiness". Kylie said as we all made a toast.
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I rubbed AJ's body down with Johnson & Johnson baby lotion, placing a fresh white onesie onto his body. I felt like he was honestly one of the most happiest babies ever and I always wanted him to remain that way. The only time ehe ever really cried was when he was hungry or sleepy, and I tried to let that be as rare as possible.
It had been about two days since the thing happened with Aubrey and I, and I admit that things had been seeming a little funny between the two of us. He had came over to see AJ earlier for about an hour and he mentioned that his team had been talking about a tour, but he didn't really go into depth about it. A few hours after he left, TheShadeRoom announced a Drake & Future Joint tour.
I wasn't really mad about him going on tour because I always wished him the best in whatever he decided to do with his career, but I didn't want him to miss out on anything with AJ.
As far as new people in our life, I didn't mention Clarence and he didn't mention anyone but I knew that he was seeing someone. At this point I just wanted the both of us to be happy, even if it wasn't with each other.
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