Little Talks- Of Monsters and Men
~~ Ty ~~
The bed feels cold and empty when I wake. My head throbs as I clutch at it, trying to remember last night. Maddie must already be awake. Maybe she had a meeting today?
All I want to do is take my brain out of my head- maybe that will make the throbbing stop. I stand up, and it's even worse. What did happen last night?
I cautiously make my way downstairs, to grab a bottle of water. I look at the couch, seeing Maddie's jacket gone from its usual spot.
I furrow my eyebrows as I pop the cap off of the bottle of water in my hand, chugging it down my dry, aching throat, which burns ferociously.
The cold water flows through my body, giving me strength, and fighting off the throbbing in my head. I decide to go upstairs and see if Hannah's awake.
I carefully hold the bottle of water as I walk up the stairs and down the hall, to Hannah's room. I crack open the door and see Hannah's crib empty, diapers spread across the floor, and some of her stuff gone.
The dam breaks. The memories being held away in my mind come out in a flood.
The tavern. The drinks. Maddie's tear-stricken face in the darkness of the night. Her voice as she looked at me with pure hatred, "I'll never forget this, Ty."
I hold my head in my hands. I've totally screwed up. I've got to go find her. It's the only thing I can do.
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The sound of my hand rapping on the wooden door of Maddie's parents' home makes my head ache. Maddie has to be here. There's no other place that she could go.
Four answers the door. "He- oh. It's you. Where's Maddie?" His voice is cold and hard- no doubt it's his instructor voice.
"Hello," I say, but I stop after that. How am I supposed to tell him that Maddie left me last night because I was drunk and doing stupid things? I should have thought this through. There's another thing I screwed up.
"She.... She left." I sigh audibly, trying to hold back the tears. I guess she's not here if Four is asking where she is.
Four grabs me by the collar of my shirt. "You. You made her leave. I saw it all on the Control Room Cameras. You're such a bastard." He throws me on the ground, and I hear someone shout, but all I feel is pain in the back of my head from where I hit the ground.
~~ Maddie ~~
When I wake, I don't see Ty. "Oh," I mumble to myself when I remember last night.
I roll over, and look at Hannah. She sleeps peacefully, her hands above her head and her legs stretched out wide. She looks like a starfish.
Ariana and Hunter let me use their guest room, so I'm in an empty bedroom. I scoop Hannah into my arms, careful to keep her asleep.
Even though she can't hear me, I look at her face that resembles Ty. "It'll get better soon," I push a wisp of brown hair from her face. "I promise." I grin, even though this situation makes me want to scream and cry.
Hannah's face scrunches up, and she begins to wail. I try to quiet her down but she only screams louder. She clutches her stomach, her tiny hands becoming white with the increased pressure.
I lift my shirt up, and place Hannah in a breastfeeding position. She latches on, sending pain through my body. She's getting close to being one year old. It's almost time to wean her off.
I purse my lips through the pain as Hannah nurses. "Ouch." I whisper to myself as she finally finishes. I slip my shirt back down and quickly move to burp her. Sometimes I think it would have been a better idea just to feed her formula. Guess we'll never know.
Once she lets out a small burp, I decide that I'm going to go to the Dining Hall for breakfast.
I'm not going to stay in hiding just because of Ty. He can't do that to me. That would show how weak I truly am.
I stand up, cradling Hannah in my arms. I step out of the room and into the hall, stumbling to the living room, the bright light from the window burning my eyes. Hunter's apartment is above ground, barely.
"Mornin', Sis." Hunter says, lifting up his coffee cup in good manors. I squint my eyes in the bright room, the glowing orange paint making it seem brighter. I study the black furniture to ground my vision.
"Good Morning, dear brother." I smile. Luke sits on a puzzle piece play mat, his eyes studying a plastic sailboat on a house.
I place Hannah beside him, and she swats at the sailboat. It falls off of the house, and Luke looks at her. "Da!" Luke screams. "Shush Lucas." Hunter dismisses the subject after giving Lucas an annoyed look.
He places it back in its place, babbling on in a language only he can understand. Hannah gurgles as she begins to babble as well. I grin at them.
"Coffee in the kitchen if you want," Hunter shrugs. I shake my head. "Nah, no thanks. I'm gonna go to the Dining Hall." I state.
"You're putting it all on the line." Hunter sips his coffee. I roll my eyes. "I'd be a coward to just get scared and leave and not show my face. I'm no coward." I explain.
He nods, pursing his lips. "Alright, well. Hannah can stay here with Luke." He says. I nod. "Thanks Hunter." I tell him before stepping out of the apartment and out into the brightness of the pit-chasm corridor.
The sun shines brightly in this part, through a metal-glass-mesh thing that serves the place of a roof. I have to walk through the pit, past our house, to get to the dining hall. I start out, wondering what Ty is doing right now.
Waking up, noticing my absence? Is he looking for me? Did he forget his hangover in favor of another drink to drown out his sorrow?
I won't know until I touch base with him. Maybe the coffee shop on the sky-level of the pit would be the place to go. Maybe later today. I don't know if I could face him, though.
By now, I've reached our housing corridor, and see the door shut and light off at our door, at the end of the rocky hall.
Ty must be gone, away from the house. "Hm." I say to myself audibly. I continue to walk, now starting back on my way to the dining hall.
I hear a slamming sound in the hallway ahead, and I get scared. "Don't be scared. That's cowardice." I whisper in the silence that follows the slamming echo.
I step forward and see a big man push another man down. As the man goes down I see who it is, And, out of habit, I shout, "Stop!"
I run forward, as my father looks at me impatiently. Ty lays on the ground, a cut visible on his lip, probably from where he bit it as he fell.
He looks at me, and a sad expression takes over his pale face. "Maddie, I'm-" he begins to talk, but I bend down close to him, pressing a finger to his lips.
"It was a mistake. It's okay. You're fine." I look ahead at the pit in front of me. It darkens, a cloud passing over the sun, before brightening again. "We're fine." I smile at him.
It was only a few hours, but it was torture. It's always going to be torture to be away from the one you love. A tear slips from my eye, and Ty wipes it away, his finger cold.
He sits up, grimacing. I stand up, and help him crawl to his feet. My knees pop loudly as I get up.
He hugs me, never letting me go again. The cut on his lip bleeds, but he ignores it, looking at me with soft eyes.
"Maddie." He says. "I'm so sorry. I just had a lot going on and I made a mistake. Oh god I made a huge mistake." He pauses, stroking my cheek with his hand. "But I shouldn't have done that. I'll never do it again." He kisses my temple before looking at my father, who looks very confused.
"I am not even gonna ask. I don't want to know." He waves it off as he walks back inside.
"I'm hungry. Breakfast?" He asks. "Breakfast." I nod at him, as he wraps an arm around my shoulder.
With that, we walk to the Dining Hall, as if the events of the day before are nothing but a horrible nightmare.
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If there's one thing I've learned about love, it's that you can't stop it. You can't distance yourself from love, from the one you love.
It only puts you in pain, it only hurts you. I've found the love of my life, and no matter how frustrated I am with him, I still love him. And I can never stop.
We might get mad at each other, but we always choose the other, over and over and over again, and we always will.
That's how it's always been, and that's how it'll always be.
a/n: this chapter is dedicated to my best friend, the wonderful, oliviarose13 ! Speaking of her, she is my co-author for my newest book {soon to be published to Wattpad} Twerk. We are both very excited for you all to read it, and we are looking forward to the places it will take us.
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So, now to the real actual guts of this author's note. I am going to be going to Dallas {again} to see my cousins in two weeks. It's like an end of summer family gathering, sort of. You know what I mean. Anywho, I've been dealing with some really bad on/off wifi today and I can't do anything. It's on right now, and so is Coffee by Miguel. That's why I put in that part about coffee shops. But anyway, I'm gonna go watch some movie on PPV, talk to all of you later.
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b} Ty or Tobias?
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c} song(s) at the moment?
- Coffee [Miguel] , Danger [Jordan Bratton], and Electric Love [BØRNS]
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